my random thoughts i need to get out, nothing important.
if you do read it sorry if you dont understand it

When i first talked to you i was on my way to an art festival with my best friend Sara, you sent me a pic and i thought you were adorable. we talked the whole, we talked about things we like, things we dont. Things were good that day, you were extremely sweet and you listened... i liked that.
We found out we had so much in common. it was crazyyyy!!!.
i texted you al that night... you added me on myspace and i look through your pics and i read your desciption and i thought you were adorable, personality and looks. You called me every night and i would talk with you for hours at a time, even on school nights... i would call you when i was in lunch in school too. we were always talking... i started to like you and you started to like me. things were going really good. i was hoping to meet you on halloween but you couldnt come out, i was torn apart. i met your friends but i didnt care about them. i wanted to see you. later in december we got into a fight i cant even remember why but i got pissed and Sara talked me into dating Mikey. He wqas a jerk and he didnt even compare to you. i totally regret it cuz it got us into a huge fight and i was extremely upset, we didnt talk for a while but i still thought about you everyday.. hoping you were okayy. i was worried about you. we would fade in and out of talking... this year later 2 days after my b-day i dumped my boyfriend at the time and decided i was going to wait fer someone i could really trust. i wanted you, i saw you had a girlfriend... i cried that night but i was going to respect that, we still talked sometimes and stayed friends. when she broke yer heart for the 6th time you talked to me abou tit, you said you were goign to dump her and that i was perfect and you wanted me... i was so happy but than the next day you werent even talking to me... that hurt me so bad i didnt even kno what to do. you fixed things with yer girlfriend which was fine and we would talk every once and a while again. After you and her broke up for good just a couple weeks ago i was happy to hear it b/c we were talking at the time and i was hoping we were going to try dating. well you were really upset and i was there for you, i didnt even hint to me liking you, i was therre only to help you get through your rough time which was fine by me. Halloween morning at 4 in the morning you texted me asking if i could go to yer party, i told you i would try and find a ride and you being you, you wanted to pay for the gas and things but i fought you on it, you said you would kiss me to stun me so you could pay for me being there. i thought it cute. i tried finding a ride but i couldnt and i was so upset. i said we needed to find a time when we are both free and i could get a ride there so we could finally hang and you said you would drop any plans to see me cuz you wanted to see me so bad. i hope that lil spark of hope that you liked me but i wasnt sure. i was scared. the next day i texted you telling you my firend liked yers and you were saying how everyone thinks he is perfect and you were kinda sad, i could tell. i could tell that you thought i liked him and i told you how perfect you are and you were way better than yer friend cuz you truely are. you said i was lieing and i told you i could prove it. you told me to prove it so i took pics of my walls where i wrote yer and and i took pics of drawing i colored for you and i sent them to you, i told you that i never colored over yer name on my wall and never ripped up the pics i made for you no matter how maad i was at you. That with all the pervious people i have done that for i have ripped up their pics and colored over their names. it was all true. this is all true. you said you were in awe when you got the pics and things and it made me happy knowing that i made you happy. i just want you to be truely happy b/c i care about you more than anything in this world. i have never forgotten about you. i dont think i ever will. you understand me better than anyone else in this world. i love that about you. i tlaked to my friend about how much i liked you but i never thought i would have a chance and he said "there are more fish in the sea" but my responce was "no!!. all the fish died but Corey fish". im not interested in anyone but you, it has been this way fer 2 years... even though i had different boyfriends throughout the first year i really wasnt happy with them... all i could think about was you... i wish you could understand that you are my world... everytime we talk i get butterflies and i get all nervous but in a good way. i love that feeling. only you can do that... its so weird. when i think about things you always pop into my mind... you are always on my mind. i really think i love you Corey... i kno so many people use that word lightly and im young and people will say i dont kno what love is but the things i cant explain the feelings i have, i think it is love... i jsut wish you felt the same but idk what you feel and it drives me crazy. i just dont even kno what to do. i wish i could send this whole thing to you but i cant...