It's like, since I have two custom species going, I do want to do stuff with them but I also think it's fine if I just have them passively there and anyone's allowed to make a sona with them. Every time I try to work on a custom species or two, I end up stressing out over it and feeling bad that I want to just push them aside for the time being half because I can't really settle with any final design nor can I even settle with having a sona of either species.

It's rather frustrating but it's how my brain is wired, I guess? Never being satisfied with anything I do or stick with. People like to tease me over not being able to stick with a sona even when it's a species I made (which I would like it if they don't, just makes me feel bad) and one friend even pointed out that it's probably my OCD that's keeping me from being satisfied with a sona/species. It doesn't surprise me. >w>;

Either way, I know I could just do what some artists do and just.. not have a sona, but I find that to be boring and I know I could just have a shapeshifter for a sona, but again, I find that to be boring. I just want to find something that I am 100% happy with and will stick with. Hell, I even thought about asking an artist friend if they'd be able to help xwx

Currently, over the past week or so, I've been trying to fight off that feeling of wanting to swap to a different sona/species and it's just verrrrry frustrating.