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Daily Dose of Dergon#003: Time and Patience
3 years ago
Hello friends! I hope you are all faring well in this heat.
Me? I'm a magical dragoness! I can take it. :3
... please ignore the steam rising from my body.
But yes. To cut right to the chase of this, and following up from my now deleted character sale journal, I'm pleased to announce that through the generosity of some truly wonderful people, I'm financially stable again.
I still have some owed commissions to finish, and you'd best believe I am going to work my hardest on them, but I am somewhat stable again at last.
But now that I've had a moment to breathe, I've had a chance to reflect on what got me in that situation of desperation...
Yes. The unexpected bills and family emergencies all hitting at once were the culprit. But I didn't help myself as much as I should have.
I was clinging onto my addiction for art commissions all through that. I took out my own safety net by throwing myself at a source of comfort.
I've become so attached to being able to just... get art on demand. Be it Patreon rewards or booping a friend. Not even thinking about it. Working out how to pay myself back for it. And the next thing I know, I've gotten several small things that have all added up.
Well... I've come to realize this approach does not make me happy anymore.
The artists I would commission did amazing work for what I wanted. But what I wanted came from a place of fleeting interest. I'd lose my love of the art in maybe a few days, and it would go in a folder. Never getting posted.
I don't want to do this anymore. There's going to be some significant slowdown in art commissions of my characters. Practically nothing for the next few months as I rebuild my safety net, and after that, I've decided I'm going to be patient with myself. Think long and hard on if what I'm getting is going to be something I'll enjoy in the long run.
I don't want to use my friends for cheap pleasure seeking. I want to be able to buy one beautiful commission from them. Instead of several cheap ones. I want to refind my passion for commissioning.
But again. This will be a ways off. My friends have been very generous and helped me find some stability and I refuse to waste their generosity. I'm going to take a break from commissions for a while.
But when I come back?
I'm going to take things one at a time. Get beautiful art I can be happy with for a long time to come! And do it in a way that doesn't put my finances in danger like I have been.
In the meantime, I wish you all the best. And I thank the friends who helped me with the most sincerity I can offer. I won't waste the chance you've given me to change my habits for the better. ^^
Take care, everyone!
Me? I'm a magical dragoness! I can take it. :3
... please ignore the steam rising from my body.
But yes. To cut right to the chase of this, and following up from my now deleted character sale journal, I'm pleased to announce that through the generosity of some truly wonderful people, I'm financially stable again.
I still have some owed commissions to finish, and you'd best believe I am going to work my hardest on them, but I am somewhat stable again at last.
But now that I've had a moment to breathe, I've had a chance to reflect on what got me in that situation of desperation...
Yes. The unexpected bills and family emergencies all hitting at once were the culprit. But I didn't help myself as much as I should have.
I was clinging onto my addiction for art commissions all through that. I took out my own safety net by throwing myself at a source of comfort.
I've become so attached to being able to just... get art on demand. Be it Patreon rewards or booping a friend. Not even thinking about it. Working out how to pay myself back for it. And the next thing I know, I've gotten several small things that have all added up.
Well... I've come to realize this approach does not make me happy anymore.
The artists I would commission did amazing work for what I wanted. But what I wanted came from a place of fleeting interest. I'd lose my love of the art in maybe a few days, and it would go in a folder. Never getting posted.
I don't want to do this anymore. There's going to be some significant slowdown in art commissions of my characters. Practically nothing for the next few months as I rebuild my safety net, and after that, I've decided I'm going to be patient with myself. Think long and hard on if what I'm getting is going to be something I'll enjoy in the long run.
I don't want to use my friends for cheap pleasure seeking. I want to be able to buy one beautiful commission from them. Instead of several cheap ones. I want to refind my passion for commissioning.
But again. This will be a ways off. My friends have been very generous and helped me find some stability and I refuse to waste their generosity. I'm going to take a break from commissions for a while.
But when I come back?
I'm going to take things one at a time. Get beautiful art I can be happy with for a long time to come! And do it in a way that doesn't put my finances in danger like I have been.
In the meantime, I wish you all the best. And I thank the friends who helped me with the most sincerity I can offer. I won't waste the chance you've given me to change my habits for the better. ^^
Take care, everyone!
While I of course adore all the pieces I've gotten and am still getting, it's very heavily become a revolving door without much feeling in it. And while I don't think I'm going to drop things like some patreon images completely (as the idea of having monthly images to work out smaller stories or narrative elements is still enticing), I do and having been trying to take the fact I am getting things routinely into account. Slowing down is a very good plan, for novelty is the reason for enjoyment in life, and I don't want art to become something 'that just happens' continually around me. I want to get things that I like to a degree I can hold onto it for a while, or at the very least be satisfied with a lower consumption rate so I can actually narratively keep up with it instead of the currently three-four established plotlines I have IN THE BACKGROUND THAT NOBODY BUT ME KNOWS ABOUT.
Just, aaaaaaa. I can empathize with this much, and wish you the best in resisting the urges when an artist pops up. I believe in youuuu!
I am totally going to boop you for more art together. <3
I've found I just really enjoy getting art with friends. It makes it feel so much more alive, having someone I know and cherish in pics. ^^
Random tangent, but you'd best keep an eye out for my next daily dose of dergon. Simply titled "SHAAAAAAADE".
And I can very much agree with that, more cool people I know in a piece the better! ^^
I will absolutely keep an eye out for that :3c fheheh
Apologies for not providing much support on my end. I’m glad to hear you’re doing well again though.