~ Will Be AFK ~
3 years ago
I wanted to make this journal because I've been having quite a lot of messages collecting up the past few days. Many are wondering where I am and I'm still here! Just been very quiet. I will return around August 4th-6th while silently working on ych stories for those who are waiting on them. My apologies for all of this! Warning: further on will be a venting post so feel free to skip the next section.
Europe has been quite the experience and I will always treasure my time here for the summer. However, I will admit I did not expect such a culture shock to hit me. I wasn't really raised well and was forced to be independent at a young age. Because of that, my extended family (my relative married into) has been quite harsh and strict upon my lack of knowledge. There are many things I have done wrong, and I accepted it. But to be called names and yelled at has...well it's certainly changes my mood.
I'm sure those who I've talken to noticed. How my introvertness has grown along with my shyness. It also just doesn't help that I suffer from ADD so it's very difficult to keep focused and very easy to become overwhelmed especially since I couldn't take my medication with me. I'm actually quite homesick now and while I'd still love to live here someday...I hope I either am on my own or I have company happy to be around me.
So, I have decided to scrounge up the rest of my money and basically "run away". Heading off to stay at a cheap hotel for as long as I can to have some alone time before my flight back home. I just can't really take it anymore. Thank you everyone for being such lovely company to me, and I'm very sorry I'm unable to talk much. Even just one reply feels like trying to write a whole novel at this point. I'll be back very soon!
I do enjoy hanging out with ya for sure but my replies may be mega slow for a bit
First off they have No right to be so mean or aggressive towards you, you've done nothing wrong! It's completely okay to be a little out of place, to not understand the culture or the language when you're in a foreign country in fact it is very much expected.
I've not traveled much abroad myself, only to Mexico a few time's and let me tell you half of the time I was just winging it.
I knew only a paw full of words in Mexican Spanish and knew nothing of their culture, but that was the Fun of it! To learn, feel and grow from the experience, not be shouted at, ridiculed or for f*cks sake called name's. That is Completely unacceptable!
*Hug's tight* I understand about a rough childhood, mine was bad too....
Who ever was doing this too you should Really have a Reevaluation of their position in your life.
That is Sooo Wrong of them!
You should be allowed to enjoy the little mistakes and the creative ways you find to communicate because you don't speak the language. You should be allowed to enjoy your time there without being browbeaten and treated like something less than human.
Shame on them for ruining what should have been a Great adventure!😠
How was Mexico overall? I'd love to know more sometime!
No one is perfect, perfection is a myth, an unattainable goal we are taught to try and strive for which only leads to stress and frustration.
You do fine and whatever flaws you may have you've more than overcome them from what I can see.
You Should have been treated with the respect and dignity that you deserve. Never let Anyone talk down to you love, you've nothing to be ashamed of and Everything to gain!
Mexico was interesting. This was back before the drug cartels took over.
The resort area is absolutely Gorgeous!
The inner parts (town's and city's) were nice but reflected a lot of poverty.
Then neat thing was the currency exchange. $1 was equal to nearly 1000 pesos! So you could take a couple of hundred dollars and live like a king for month.
However the down side is the reality of how poor the country truly is and how the people must struggle to survive.
Still it was a fun time and a Great learning experience.
I think the best part of visiting other countries is learning the culture first hand and meeting all of the fascinating people along the way.
May I ask where you're from?
Draggy residesin Virginia, home of zero furry population....😔
Be safe
But I am happy to be of help
And yep people tend to ditch their frustration on someone else very often. Some people from my family were like this. It's really sad to hear that those guys were this unwelcoming to you. Having an extended understanding and knowledge about other cultures is just an unrealistic standard. No one would want to travel if they were critized and shamed upon with every little mistake or misunderstading.
I am honestly a bit shocked extended family would do such. There have been teachers in my own life that nurtured curiosity and helped foster a want to learn as well as others that were very strict and made me never want to learn about that subject they were so passionate about. It really is a shame when someone tries to shove things down your throat so you learn to resent anything that reminds you of that experience.
All that said, you should be there to explore, learn, enjoy and relax. At least I wouldn't think of going to Europe if I wasn't planning on enjoying myself; however, if there was a situation where I wasn't, I'd do the same thing and get to a place where I could enjoy. All that said, I can fully understand the awkwardness that may have come by the shift in plans, but family should be able to understand when people just want to explore and have some alone time.
So by all means, go out, explore, learn, relax, take it in and create incredible memories that you can thoroughly enjoy and recall with glee. It's quite clear you've an outpouring of people wanting to see you have a good time and I'd include myself in this as well. Do continue to take care of yourself, you are very important and a treasure :)
I am just really sorry to hear that not all has gone down well >< I'm sorry to hear that the rest of your trip has been tainted by what is just childish behaver >< it also saddens me to hear your childhood has not been the best >< from the short description you have given it sounds like you really had to grow up fast, faster than you should have done. However that does not give the right for your extended family to treat you the way they have >< no one is perfect! and just because someone has a lack of knowledge in something you have great knowledge in doesn't mean you should talk down to them!
You should not have not be shouted at or ridiculed or heck even called names! I mean that's stuff you hear in the playground at school not grown adults! If anything sweetie having to be forced to be independent at such a young ages may not have been the best but I bet its made you a stronger person and in my eyes more of an adult compared to these people calling you names and judging you on your lack of knowledge >< again the whole name calling thing is childish your way more of an adult than them that's for sure!
Being human we are allowed to make mistakes as that's how we learn in life its how we grow and having flaws is like mother nature, you can't beat her or out run her but you can get through it! you can overcome these things in life and become a stronger person for it.
Please remember one thing sweetie I may not know every single person you interact with but I know for sure that each person that does loves you for who you are! I know I do ^^ your such an inspirational person, you fire my motivation just hearing your words of encouragement!, your talented, your sweet, you have a heart of gold, your beautiful, your smile lifts the dark clouds when we talk and just an all round wonderful radiant young lady who is such a joy to be with ^^ No one expects a reply the moment they send a message so I dont think any of us mind waiting till you can find the time to reply ^^
I don't know how you found my picture I did of fluffle puff but I'm glad you did because now your a part of my life and that is something I am truly grateful for ^^ I may not be your first choice sweetheart but remember should you need to talk I will always be there for you ^^