So yeah about that leaving 2 months ago shit, I decided to come back and pick up the pieces.

listen guys my mental health has been extremely bad for the past two years and only recently someone I treated as a close friend cut ties with me after they found new friends to replace me with (they only value people until they are bored of you type meanwhile emotionally manipulating you that they see you as one of the most important people in their life. that nonsense.) , tl;dr we both had our problems in the friendship and neither of our hands are clean of it but everyone involved says this person was the way bigger aggressor in the friendship.

after having a couple of months to calm down I realized how incredibly toxic this person was and how it was passing off into me because of the blatant disrespect they constantly shown me but then and turn telling me how Im so important to them and blah blah blah. anyway I made a big step in removing them completely in my life and honestly I feel lighter because of it.

and with that my head is more clearer too that I realized I made hasty decisions in my extreme anxiety state of feeling I have 0 sense of safety and control on anything in my life. I still have a lot of healing to do but Im now in a much better enviroment where I feel safe for once.

lol I destroyed all my work on this account, I guess I will have to post what I still have archived from my pc. orz thats a fat rip.