Hi everyone,

It's been a while. I've been hoping to get more active here for quite a while now, albeit with anxiety still somewhat holding me back. But it'll still be a little while longer as I'm going through an immensely difficult time in my life.

After a long battle with dementia and more recent breathing difficulties, my granddad has just recently passed away. Thankfully, it was not a death of tragedy or pain. He had lived a full and happy life, the hospital kept him as comfortable as possible, he was surrounded by family, his favourite music was playing, he had his rosary beads and the hospital Chaplin was there for him, and while I wasn't there the moment he passed, I was told that his last breath was followed by a smile. He's all back together now, in a better place. That along with the fact I was able to visit a couple days before, and give him my best memories and my promises, has me a lot more at peace.

I really am going to miss him. We were really close. I loved every moment we spent together. Writing this now, I'm once again tearing up. But if there was one thing Granddad always wanted from us, it was for us all to be happy, so that's what I'm going to do my best to be, as difficult as it is right now.

Thank you so much to all those that have supported me so far. It means the world to me. Like I said in the start of this journal, I'm hoping to be more active, but for now, time is needed for healing. I'll also be returning to college in a couple months. I'll be working on my time management with regards to that.

Once again, thank you all.

Paradox