So, it's been a while since I have done this, a lot of things hurt lately and broken me, piece by piece, as melodramatic as that may sound. The prospect of my father surviving this cancer is now pretty much zero, so I have to watch as he dies slowly, due to him not working I am the primary bread winner of my house if you don't count disability. We have to sell this house that we built and move in two months.

I've also let friends down, one that I visited felt like I wasn't enjoying my time or paying attention, another one just, decided that we aren't best friends anymore, a different friend, a local that used to be my best friend kicked me out of his DnD campaign cause, in his words "I had wasted his time".

What is truly wrong with me? Am I even worth a damn? Those, troubling thoughts came back and they scared me... I wanted to give up, just let everything fall apart around me... I push to support others but I don't let others support me, after all, I don't exactly have a support system at home.

But, it's just whatever, as broken as I am, I cannot be fixed, not now...