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16 years ago
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*Warning, this is about love and stuff and crap*
So i spent 3 days at this leadership conference in Syracuse for a program called SkillsUSA. I went with four other kids from my CTE school and i went with this boy who i have this major crush on, like the kind of crush where i have sweaty palms, and my heart feels like its going to burst out of my chest and i haven't eaten all day 'cause when i do i feel like i'm going to vomit. I've never been in a relationship before and i don't know much about guys in general so i can't tell whether he likes me or not. I mean like he asked me to go to the pool with him and then invited me back to him room with him. While up in his room (his roomates were there too so nothing happened) we laid around on his bed and watched tv together. We talked and laughed and joked, we held hands and i stuck my head in the crook of his neck and smelled him and god did he smell good, like oranges and lemons although he just got out of the pool. He let me rub his belly and tickle him and such, he made some sexual gestures and comments but they were jokes. He even got changed while i was there, like completely naked although his back was turned to me so all i got to see was his cute butt. Then we cuddled and spooned for a bit which gave me the opportunity to kiss him but of course i was shy and i chickened out. Then our advisers caught us and i got kicked out (lol). Then this morning we played a game and sat together on the shuttle on the way back to the train station. However once we got on the train he barely spoke to me, then he went off to play with his guy friends and some girls we met at the conference and of course i was insanely jealous. When my mom came to pick me up i got a hug from him but he didn't give me his number and didn't ask for mine and i was too shy to ask for his. So i dunno where this leaves us and whether there is the possibility of a relationship or not. My insides are all up in knots and i feel happy and like crying and anxious and scared and embarrassed all at once, bah, why can't love be less complicated?
So i spent 3 days at this leadership conference in Syracuse for a program called SkillsUSA. I went with four other kids from my CTE school and i went with this boy who i have this major crush on, like the kind of crush where i have sweaty palms, and my heart feels like its going to burst out of my chest and i haven't eaten all day 'cause when i do i feel like i'm going to vomit. I've never been in a relationship before and i don't know much about guys in general so i can't tell whether he likes me or not. I mean like he asked me to go to the pool with him and then invited me back to him room with him. While up in his room (his roomates were there too so nothing happened) we laid around on his bed and watched tv together. We talked and laughed and joked, we held hands and i stuck my head in the crook of his neck and smelled him and god did he smell good, like oranges and lemons although he just got out of the pool. He let me rub his belly and tickle him and such, he made some sexual gestures and comments but they were jokes. He even got changed while i was there, like completely naked although his back was turned to me so all i got to see was his cute butt. Then we cuddled and spooned for a bit which gave me the opportunity to kiss him but of course i was shy and i chickened out. Then our advisers caught us and i got kicked out (lol). Then this morning we played a game and sat together on the shuttle on the way back to the train station. However once we got on the train he barely spoke to me, then he went off to play with his guy friends and some girls we met at the conference and of course i was insanely jealous. When my mom came to pick me up i got a hug from him but he didn't give me his number and didn't ask for mine and i was too shy to ask for his. So i dunno where this leaves us and whether there is the possibility of a relationship or not. My insides are all up in knots and i feel happy and like crying and anxious and scared and embarrassed all at once, bah, why can't love be less complicated?
...at least... that's how I'd be in that sort of situation XD;
It sounds very much like he's got a thing for you with all that adorable snugging time. Yes, those things you did are generally things done with snuggling.
Though you don't have each others phone numbers, do you have any way to get in contact with him again?
oh, and thanks for the comment.
My suggestion to perhaps write him a note. You can write the words that can't escape your throat when you're too shy, it's something that can be passed off in an instant so it doesn't take up too much school time, and it's freaking adorable. Ask him for a way to contact you rather than hand out your own information. That way, if he really does have interest in you he'll go out of his way to talk to you or give a note back to you. Maybe ask for a number or email or something. My personal vote is e-communication like emails or Messenger/AIM/Yahoo/whatever, since it's a whole lot easier to keep a cool head and chat with a crush than to talk over the phone. But that's just me.
Asking him to meet you someplace after school is also an option, I suppose, but that has the chance of being stood up if he might have something else planned or whatever. That's something up to you if you want to try it.
But caution is a must as well because, yes, there are guys out there who understand lust more than love. Gives a bad name to gentlemen like myself... *grumble grumble* So whatever you do, play it safe, stay in pubic places until you know you can trust him, and no sex. Yes, I just said it. Seriously.
I don't mean to sound like a weird stalker or anything, but feel free to note me if you have any personal questions or anything. I have a bit of experience helping friends in these kinds of matters =P