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Hyperfixations and Anxiety
3 years ago
♥Meowmoirs♥
Geez. Where to begin.
Around the middle of June I went to a big event dedicated to Japanese Harajuku fashion. I've worn lolita fashion since 2015 and so I wore it to that event. I met people I had only known online at that event and idk why but that made me spiral into a pit of anxiety over my self worth. "Am I good enough?" "Do I look bad in this?" "Am I too fat?" etc etc. Eventually I just found myself not wanting to wear the fashion. In July I just really didn't wear lolita very much, and in fact was so absorbed in snakes and reptiles that I didn't really do anything except watch reptile youtubers, browse r/ballpython, shop for my snake supplies, and feel giddy as I got closer to bringing home my boy. I just lived and breathed reptiles. What little art I produced was just drawings of reptiles in my sketchbook (I need to post them but keep forgetting because sketchbooks are kind of ugly lol). Now that I have my snake I feel the hyperfixation calming down. I love my boy but he's not my entire personality. I've gotten help for my anxiety and so I'm slowly getting back to enjoying dressing up. I'm also starting to feel free to draw again. Thank GODS omg.
Around the middle of June I went to a big event dedicated to Japanese Harajuku fashion. I've worn lolita fashion since 2015 and so I wore it to that event. I met people I had only known online at that event and idk why but that made me spiral into a pit of anxiety over my self worth. "Am I good enough?" "Do I look bad in this?" "Am I too fat?" etc etc. Eventually I just found myself not wanting to wear the fashion. In July I just really didn't wear lolita very much, and in fact was so absorbed in snakes and reptiles that I didn't really do anything except watch reptile youtubers, browse r/ballpython, shop for my snake supplies, and feel giddy as I got closer to bringing home my boy. I just lived and breathed reptiles. What little art I produced was just drawings of reptiles in my sketchbook (I need to post them but keep forgetting because sketchbooks are kind of ugly lol). Now that I have my snake I feel the hyperfixation calming down. I love my boy but he's not my entire personality. I've gotten help for my anxiety and so I'm slowly getting back to enjoying dressing up. I'm also starting to feel free to draw again. Thank GODS omg.
