Life is too short. So I need to start there.

It has come to my attention that I may be a little bit too high strung when it comes to tastes. I might've been a little bit judgemental towards certain types of cliques and people. So, let me be the first person to come up and say, I'm sorry for treating you like that if you actually legitimately wanted to build a friendship with me.

Not all people are terrible nasty creatures and as screwed up as it sounds, I know that now. Just because a lot of people are gross, nasty and selfish, doesn't mean that all of them are. I always say I like to spread the love and kindness unconditionally but I feel like I'm coming off very hypocritical when I say so. Because I won't interact with people who have nothing but porn on their page/likes and come off as a complete brainless horny bastard on their page. Yet, I say love yourself, love each other and love the world when obviously, I'm not doing it myself. I keep telling all of you to walk the walk and talk the talk when I'm not even doing it myself.

I've cut people off before because of their involvement in pornography and blood/gore/death or anything else that I don't agree with, regardless of how long I've had a friendship with them for. I feel bad about doing so. Because not everyone is bad. Also, for people who are popular who have wanted to reach out to me for friendship and acceptance, I slowly lose ties with because I somewhat get sad because I'm not as popular as they are so I automatically assume that they have a different group of friends they'd rather hang out with other than me. So I let them go as well. While yes, all this bias is making me hurt myself and making my self esteem and self confidence drop astronomically, I also feel like I'm hurting those around me who want to reach out for real legitimate and wholesome friendships.

Sometimes when I think about this, it makes me remember what a good time I had together with the wonderful  Bendor before his tragic suicide. For someone could be gone tomorrow after I cut ties with them for some dumbass reason and they be left without the love and support I could've given them if I had just stuck around and not be a judgemental git. We need to be around each other and love one another for who we are and again, I feel like I'm not doing that.

So let me please. I'm genuinely sorry if I have come off as rude to you, just because of your status or what you're into. I'm sorry. I'm supposed to love you for who you are and honestly, I need to stop going off of bias. My mother didn't raise me that way... She wouldn't have wanted me to be that way... She would have wanted me to use that love and kindness and spread it out into the world, regardless of who you are.

I love you. I accept you. I am very sorry if I've hurt you. Please forgive me. I understand if you don't, but just know that I love each and every one of you. Dadgon's promise.

Stay safe and love yourself.