I put maybe too much effort and stock into friendships? Like, I confide in my friends, love them to death, so when they slight me, reduce me from best friend status to "friend status" without a word, and when they show more value to others that give them more attention.

It hurts like shit, and you'd think I'd get used to it since being slighted and forgotten was, kind of the way I was treated by friends my whole life, but nope, shit hurts, and no matter how much I voice it, I'm talking to a brick wall.

All that we have been through means nothing, he and they give more time to others, spend more time with, they don't reach out unless they "kind of" think about me. When I tried reaching out and they barely reciprocated. So, I take zero responsibility for us drifting apart like we have.

Me knowing them inadvertently lead to me traveling more and getting out of my comfort zone, but at this point, that's all that seems to matter to our "friendship".

Doubtful they know, doubtful they care much, they have better friends that matter more to them, I'm going to try and forget, try and not care, focus on the friends that stay with me and actually care about me.