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3 years ago
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Hello everyone.
Though I would say I am fine.
Things are not okay.
I am in another hotel with my dog for a few days.
Apparently suffering from PTSD from the break in.
My stomach has been killing me every time around 3am at our old place.
I wake up full of energy and hearing things outside.
I tried to eat but I lost my appetite.
I spend my hours reading and waiting.
I check the security feed to see about the car break in my neighborhood.
I feel anxious, worried about my dog and keep the lights on during the night.
New locks, a bar and folding chairs placed at both doors if I hear someone breaking in.
I know it be difficult, yet I check the windows just in case.
I hear the sounds of cars drag racing down our road at 3 AM.
Then I hear creaks from the fences and security lights go off.
My dog even wakes up panting staring me down while I lay out on the couch. Holding a new wooden bat, because I am not afraid...
I am prepared for that coward to return. Ready to defend my home. The punks roaming the campus street trying to break in unlock cars.
Yet when I tell people, they say "get a gun!" But I can't ...
I don't trust myself with one. I rather take a bat knowing it feel better to swing and chase them off.Even if they be armed, I set the alarm and rush in!
I don't want them dead...I want them to suffer like how lose sleep over this.
I try to tell the cops, but they can't do anything till it happens or don't have enough to Patrol that time.
I am forced to wait until we move when things blow over, but I blame myself for letting that them get away.
I lived here in peace helping neighbors, with only a couple times my car door was left unlocked.Yet I have nothing for them to take. I am defending my brothers place while he is away. Things here have gone to shit!
They were crazy enough to break in while I slept! I can't focus or dream with everything changing like this!
Waiting for my new job a week after, leaving my asshole of a boss to rot!
No matter how many times I talk about it, even therapy wouldn't help.
ALL BECAUSE I JUST WANT TO SLEEP!
I will be fine...I have those who care and comfort me. Their own way.
Yet know this...will still haunt me when I look in the hall way with a red light.
I am not afraid of monsters....I am angry at people...because I feel like a monster.
Though I would say I am fine.
Things are not okay.
I am in another hotel with my dog for a few days.
Apparently suffering from PTSD from the break in.
My stomach has been killing me every time around 3am at our old place.
I wake up full of energy and hearing things outside.
I tried to eat but I lost my appetite.
I spend my hours reading and waiting.
I check the security feed to see about the car break in my neighborhood.
I feel anxious, worried about my dog and keep the lights on during the night.
New locks, a bar and folding chairs placed at both doors if I hear someone breaking in.
I know it be difficult, yet I check the windows just in case.
I hear the sounds of cars drag racing down our road at 3 AM.
Then I hear creaks from the fences and security lights go off.
My dog even wakes up panting staring me down while I lay out on the couch. Holding a new wooden bat, because I am not afraid...
I am prepared for that coward to return. Ready to defend my home. The punks roaming the campus street trying to break in unlock cars.
Yet when I tell people, they say "get a gun!" But I can't ...
I don't trust myself with one. I rather take a bat knowing it feel better to swing and chase them off.Even if they be armed, I set the alarm and rush in!
I don't want them dead...I want them to suffer like how lose sleep over this.
I try to tell the cops, but they can't do anything till it happens or don't have enough to Patrol that time.
I am forced to wait until we move when things blow over, but I blame myself for letting that them get away.
I lived here in peace helping neighbors, with only a couple times my car door was left unlocked.Yet I have nothing for them to take. I am defending my brothers place while he is away. Things here have gone to shit!
They were crazy enough to break in while I slept! I can't focus or dream with everything changing like this!
Waiting for my new job a week after, leaving my asshole of a boss to rot!
No matter how many times I talk about it, even therapy wouldn't help.
ALL BECAUSE I JUST WANT TO SLEEP!
I will be fine...I have those who care and comfort me. Their own way.
Yet know this...will still haunt me when I look in the hall way with a red light.
I am not afraid of monsters....I am angry at people...because I feel like a monster.
