guess who will need to go to some rehab most likely! booze just relaxes me way too well for the last month or so and i think i need to stop kidding myself i can just stop
I'm... really scared I'll have to just drop booze altogether. And I know how many just, minute adjustments to social living will this entail - it's a ton of self discipline.
But the sooner I recall feeling alright without it, as I now get defensive more about not feeling so, the better?... I just feel ashamed for now...
sober supports are essential to mitigate the profound disorientation you’ll have to find your way through — but there is absolutely no shame in addiction, it is so common and unnecessarily stigmatized — it’s a deeply vulnerable place to enter but usually there is something worth discovering from walking through these byzantine valleys
Ah! I'm familiar with the AA program steps, it's just... it's a ton of work and it just sounds so much easier to ride out the misery even if I know it makes me worse
But, yeah. Tons of shame and guilt on my end for now
And yeah it is unnecessarily stigmatized but stigmatized it is indeed - and I already worry a ton about what other people think of me
kudos to you, dude — it takes so much strength to do this — it was the best thing i ever did. 2.5 years later, i’m with you in spirit and furry solidarity — DM open if you want support (i’m an irl mental health professional FWIW) 💕
But the sooner I recall feeling alright without it, as I now get defensive more about not feeling so, the better?... I just feel ashamed for now...
But, yeah. Tons of shame and guilt on my end for now
And yeah it is unnecessarily stigmatized but stigmatized it is indeed - and I already worry a ton about what other people think of me