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It's 2022.
3 years ago
-blows dust off of account and my journal-
! Just letting you guys know this is gonna be an intense journal. !
... Boy it's been a while since I've posted, right guys?
I don't know where to begin, other than it's been a long, long, ride with a lot of problems, and a lot of ups and downs. None of you really know, but my Real Life situation has unfortunately gotten a bit out of hand, and I've needed quite a bit of help regarding it. I've been hospitalized 3 times these past two years, and have had to go inpatient twice. I've had to be put on multiple medications, and I even have a psychiatrist and a therapist.
I've been diagnosed with various issues that have made it very hard to do real life things. There's GAD, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, which makes it hard to function in general. My heart races, I get sweaty in everyday situations-- it's not easy. There's Major Depressive Disorder, where I can't get out of bed at times for days on end. There's even OCD. There's a myriad of things that have been going on, and it's made my life hell.
I went inpatient the first time due to the MLP vore community. People within my close social circle ended up being pedophiles, or people who consume underage content. That is a wildly big trigger for me, and can actually cause panic attacks, relapses, and the like due to childhood trauma of being molested for 3 years. It disgusts me. Heavily. I'm not dealing with people who consume that content, but I want to continue creating MLP vore content because it's not only a thing I enjoy doing, but it's oddly enough, soothing for me to draw.
There has been a rumor going around that one of my closest friends, Doomfister, has been manipulating me into only being able to post my artworks. I'm here for the first time in two years to tell you that that is not true. Please do not start or spread rumors like this, because it not only hurts me as the artist, but it hurts him as the poster as well. It's rude, and you should try and get all sides of a story before starting rumors.
The truth of the matter is very simple. I trust Doom to post my content. He is one of the very few individuals who can even commission this sort of content from me anymore because of my previous situations. He is basically a 'manager' for me, or one could even say a 'filter' for creeps. He is one of two people I trust to post my content on sites. Eka's specifically, with June being the one who can post my work to furaffinity, unless I do so myself.
There is a lot of information that the public doesn't know regarding my situation. There is a lot of information that the public doesn't know about the MLP vore community. There are some disgusting people that I've unfortunately had to come in contact with.
Please don't spread/start rumors. There's nothing more to it. Doom is not manipulating me to only post my work. No one is manipulating me. I was the one who even suggested he do this in the first place.
So until then, please! Enjoy my content that can be now found on Doomfister's page. There's even a folder for yours truly. You can find the folder here: https://aryion.com/g4/view/818044
Nomi, or Chemically Calm, has been retired. The vast majority of my old Vore OCs are also retired. There's going to be new content coming out, and I hope you all enjoy it. Feel free to even leave comments, suggestions, or even ideas for upcoming content. I do warmups all the time.
I will not be returning to my Eka's account. However, you can find my content more than likely ON eka's, here, or on derpibooru.
I hope y'all have a wonderful day.
Cheers!
♡ Nomi
! Just letting you guys know this is gonna be an intense journal. !
... Boy it's been a while since I've posted, right guys?
I don't know where to begin, other than it's been a long, long, ride with a lot of problems, and a lot of ups and downs. None of you really know, but my Real Life situation has unfortunately gotten a bit out of hand, and I've needed quite a bit of help regarding it. I've been hospitalized 3 times these past two years, and have had to go inpatient twice. I've had to be put on multiple medications, and I even have a psychiatrist and a therapist.
I've been diagnosed with various issues that have made it very hard to do real life things. There's GAD, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, which makes it hard to function in general. My heart races, I get sweaty in everyday situations-- it's not easy. There's Major Depressive Disorder, where I can't get out of bed at times for days on end. There's even OCD. There's a myriad of things that have been going on, and it's made my life hell.
I went inpatient the first time due to the MLP vore community. People within my close social circle ended up being pedophiles, or people who consume underage content. That is a wildly big trigger for me, and can actually cause panic attacks, relapses, and the like due to childhood trauma of being molested for 3 years. It disgusts me. Heavily. I'm not dealing with people who consume that content, but I want to continue creating MLP vore content because it's not only a thing I enjoy doing, but it's oddly enough, soothing for me to draw.
There has been a rumor going around that one of my closest friends, Doomfister, has been manipulating me into only being able to post my artworks. I'm here for the first time in two years to tell you that that is not true. Please do not start or spread rumors like this, because it not only hurts me as the artist, but it hurts him as the poster as well. It's rude, and you should try and get all sides of a story before starting rumors.
The truth of the matter is very simple. I trust Doom to post my content. He is one of the very few individuals who can even commission this sort of content from me anymore because of my previous situations. He is basically a 'manager' for me, or one could even say a 'filter' for creeps. He is one of two people I trust to post my content on sites. Eka's specifically, with June being the one who can post my work to furaffinity, unless I do so myself.
There is a lot of information that the public doesn't know regarding my situation. There is a lot of information that the public doesn't know about the MLP vore community. There are some disgusting people that I've unfortunately had to come in contact with.
Please don't spread/start rumors. There's nothing more to it. Doom is not manipulating me to only post my work. No one is manipulating me. I was the one who even suggested he do this in the first place.
So until then, please! Enjoy my content that can be now found on Doomfister's page. There's even a folder for yours truly. You can find the folder here: https://aryion.com/g4/view/818044
Nomi, or Chemically Calm, has been retired. The vast majority of my old Vore OCs are also retired. There's going to be new content coming out, and I hope you all enjoy it. Feel free to even leave comments, suggestions, or even ideas for upcoming content. I do warmups all the time.
I will not be returning to my Eka's account. However, you can find my content more than likely ON eka's, here, or on derpibooru.
I hope y'all have a wonderful day.
Cheers!
♡ Nomi
It sounds like you've had to deal with a LOT, and it goes without saying that your own mental health should forever and always be top priority. As someone who also suffers from Crippling Anxiety & Depressive disorders, I think the stepping away, getting the care you needed and appointing a friend as manager to help filter out the who and what you had to deal with in turn seems like it was a good choice for you. After all, we don't always have to shoulder everything ourselves if trustworthy help is there.
I do sincerely hope you're in a better state now, Nomi. Take all the time you need, create what you want to create, and share/interact in whatever means you feel the most safest to do so - I'm glad to see your name around again!