I don't matter
3 years ago
General
I don't matter at all do I... Not even a little
I'm never seen as me anymore... no one ever cares about what the real me is like. It's either they've got the hots for my sona or my body pics.
Oh and screw me if I ever try and suggest something outside of that... I can't remember the last time anyone wanted to get to me know beyond those things..
It's always the same story. Everyone's got something better to do. Never got time for me unless something is in it for them. Never a moment to spare for boring old me.
I'm so very lonely. I spend far too much time by myself. Working from home will do that. I am lucky if even ONE person wants to spend time with me a week
I struggle in group chats. And don't gimme the whole "you don't have to talk in group chats" that's pretty much the only way to meet people anymore. But what do I have to bring. Nothing. I'm the most boring uninteresting person you'll ever meet. Say otherwise and you're lying to me or don't know me very well.
I don't know why i'm sharing this..
I'm never seen as me anymore... no one ever cares about what the real me is like. It's either they've got the hots for my sona or my body pics.
Oh and screw me if I ever try and suggest something outside of that... I can't remember the last time anyone wanted to get to me know beyond those things..
It's always the same story. Everyone's got something better to do. Never got time for me unless something is in it for them. Never a moment to spare for boring old me.
I'm so very lonely. I spend far too much time by myself. Working from home will do that. I am lucky if even ONE person wants to spend time with me a week
I struggle in group chats. And don't gimme the whole "you don't have to talk in group chats" that's pretty much the only way to meet people anymore. But what do I have to bring. Nothing. I'm the most boring uninteresting person you'll ever meet. Say otherwise and you're lying to me or don't know me very well.
I don't know why i'm sharing this..
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If something isn't giving people some sort of instant gratification or sense of growth people don't have time for it. It's not wrong to be upset about how vapid everyone appears because of it.
Even after leaving my job to do furry art, I rarely get the energy to reach out to my friends or if I do I can't really engage for long. It's sucks and it's awful, my focus goes mostly to making money to pay my bills and maybe play videogames with some friends who happened to buy the same game, or get on VRChat for just a few hours to hang out. (IDK if I added you yet but I'm ArtieNuki there!!)
I do think it's wrong to say you don't matter or you don't bring anything- if that were true you wouldn't lament not being able to share other sides of yourself or your interests outside of your sona or body!
I think the best thing to do is look outside of these spaces where the context is different to find people who aren't preoccupied with chasing tail or such. There may be groups or forums online who are interested in those other things, from gardening to trading card games as examples.
Damn, the feeling of not fitting in or not feeling like you bring anything to the table. Or that people are only interested in you because they want gratification
It's hard navigating this online world. You just gotta keep your head up and remember you do matter, what you do has worth in and of itself. And hopefully find some people along the way you can talk to
If this comment is unwanted, no worries, but I find some kinda solace in knowing other people have the same kinda feelings
Granted i'm not pure by any means. If I get on with someone in a naughty way, then yes i'll float the idea of having some fun together. Sometimes that's a the beginning when talking to someone, sometimes down the road. it bothers me more though when that's all people ever see you for. No interest in anything else..that hurts after a while.
Anyway I could ramble about this for days and go nowhere fast. Thanks for the comment. Sincere and sweet and i'm grateful!
i can really relate to your feelings, that really sucks man.