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About being a furry
3 years ago
When I was 14 I joined the so fantastic furry world, where I thought I could feel included, make friends, have fun... until time passed and reality slowly shown me it's almost the contrary.
I felt continuously reyected by other furries, sometimes because people was a jerk, others because I was a jerk (I must admit my mistakes too, not only blame other people), and sometimes... both. That ended with me leaving many people I do not like, people I've hurted and people who I hate or either hates me... all over Discord servers, just because I thought I could be their friends by liking the same damn antropomorphic animal...
With time I learned about my mistakes and I've changed, so now I am not so annoying as I was before, still, now I can't talk as comfortably as I was used to in furry servers, not only because I've became more shy, but because there's those people who I ended having problems with, which can make talk uncomfortable and ends blocking me from making new friends. There's also the fact that furries usually make VERY close friend groups where nobody's welcome other than the people who's already on then, so each time I enter a furry server I automaticly feel marginated and excluded.
And if I am sharing this here it's not because I am giving up on being a furry, either because I am going to close this account or anything like that. It is because it hurts me, it hurts me to realize that being a furry has hurted me more than other thing, it has made me feel reyected other than included, so please, if you've gone this far in this journal, am I missing something about being a furry? Is it normal to feel so reyected in the fandom?
I'll be glad to hear your answers, it would hurt me a lot to not being a fury anymore, but it all points that I must stop being so... I've stopped drawing anthro dragons since I stared to feel reyected, that's the true reason of why I upload so few art here, I mostly post art in DA, where I show my story, my characters, who aren't dragons, but gods, human-shaped gods that I prefier to draw... rather the sexy dragon I've created to represent myself on the internet.
I felt continuously reyected by other furries, sometimes because people was a jerk, others because I was a jerk (I must admit my mistakes too, not only blame other people), and sometimes... both. That ended with me leaving many people I do not like, people I've hurted and people who I hate or either hates me... all over Discord servers, just because I thought I could be their friends by liking the same damn antropomorphic animal...
With time I learned about my mistakes and I've changed, so now I am not so annoying as I was before, still, now I can't talk as comfortably as I was used to in furry servers, not only because I've became more shy, but because there's those people who I ended having problems with, which can make talk uncomfortable and ends blocking me from making new friends. There's also the fact that furries usually make VERY close friend groups where nobody's welcome other than the people who's already on then, so each time I enter a furry server I automaticly feel marginated and excluded.
And if I am sharing this here it's not because I am giving up on being a furry, either because I am going to close this account or anything like that. It is because it hurts me, it hurts me to realize that being a furry has hurted me more than other thing, it has made me feel reyected other than included, so please, if you've gone this far in this journal, am I missing something about being a furry? Is it normal to feel so reyected in the fandom?
I'll be glad to hear your answers, it would hurt me a lot to not being a fury anymore, but it all points that I must stop being so... I've stopped drawing anthro dragons since I stared to feel reyected, that's the true reason of why I upload so few art here, I mostly post art in DA, where I show my story, my characters, who aren't dragons, but gods, human-shaped gods that I prefier to draw... rather the sexy dragon I've created to represent myself on the internet.
I'm just the way I am, maybe just be yourself too?