Yuep, I can't take it anymore. I'm venting. I surrender. I'm fucking venting. Happy, world? Want me to continue like this? Want me to continue venting instead of letting me do my hobbies?

I am trying to get back into drawing. Every time I do so, something stupid or bad happens. I've noticed this pattern for a good while, and I'm starting to "get" it.

I took a month to draw countless characters in one picture, and as soon as I finished, Russia invades the Ukraine. At least we all know how that's going. Hats off to Ukraine, and up yours and enjoy your version of Vietnam, Pudding. Ungrateful bastard.

I started drawing a comic, I get peltered with my friends overreacting to a news article regarding Back To The Future "remake" when it was really a Broadway/play adaptation. This overreaction is EXACTLY what news websites want. Fucking puppets.

I try making a simple drawing, I then search up "freeways" out of curiosity, I see a news article of "freeways being racist". "UMG THIS IS RACIST BECAUSE I SAY SO WAAAAH". Attention seeking LOSER.

I do a little cosplaying while drawing, a neighbor dies. She had medical problems prior, but what the hell???

I'm tracing an old picture, the Queen of England fucking dies. HOW???

I continue tracing the old picture, then I make a base out of it and put another character on it as a form of "resilience", and I see a friend complaining about DA shoving another feature into the Core wall AND someone I watch complains about InkBunny "*banning" SFM pictures. Some of you saw my previous journal, that was in light of it. Double combo, two bullshits in one. My fucking favorite.

*TL;DR, from what I could gather, Source Film Maker pictures showing models not made by the artists are the ones getting deleted. Official models from games, not made by the artists themselves. Aside from "copyright excuses", hell if I know why they did something obviously loophole-filled like that. Just get fucking Blender, MMD, or a fucking game snapshot and they won't bat an eye.

Today? Same as the last, resiliently continuing to draw for the sake of it. I then wanted to find out if jellyfish use electricity, I get a Quora ad explaining how Google spies on us outside of their website, a mandatory reminder how [e]corporations are ruling us[/e]. Thanks, DuckDuckGo, I totally needed that information that may be totally not skewered while I'm doing something totally not innocent. Totally.
WOAH GUYS! I said "totally" on a successive basis, and all in ironic manner, AND I SAID SOMETHING AN UNHAPPY AND DREADFUL MANER, just like YOU GUYS!! Laugh! I EVEN EMPHASISED IT SO YOU CAN SEE IT AND FEEL DREADFUL FASTER!! It took me like 5 seconds to come up with it! Please laugh! : |


This goddamn problem has been going on for YEARS. I swear, it's like a fucking curse! As soon as I get back into in drawing, and I get peltered with bullshit and nonsense, Every, fucking, time!! I swear, this world WANTS me to stop drawing!!
If this stupid world wants me to stop drawing, then it will need me to commit suicide! Up your ass, world! Eat my fucking dirt!! Do your fucking worst!!


TL:DR
I don't understand why drawing should be punished with constant annoyance. I'm fucking pissed. I just want to fucking draw. That's it. Period. No excuses.