I am such a train wreck right now, everything is wrong, I feel broken and, not worth it for what ever reason, I feel like a burden, I want a relationship, I want to feel like I'm okay, but I'll never be okay. I've run run into a wall, I can't advance, I want to put focus on my friends, be supportive, but my mind is so cloudy. I don't feel hopeful, I feel, terrible, always, forever terrible.