And, now I have to pretend that I am okay, that I'm not stressed, that I don't want to break down everything the smallest thing happens, I'm tired, I want to cry but nothing comes out, I want to grieve but, my heart is too weighted down, I want to scream, but I have no mouth.

I will continue to bury myself, bury myself into my deepest thoughts, my deepest desires, find happiness where only I can, let my loneliness take root, cause it has no where to go, let my pain stay, cause it's here, inside, spreading.

It's not that bad, it's simple, just, be strong and be your mothers rock, voice of reason and supporter, that's what I tell myself. People have it worse than me, my issues aren't as valid as people make them out to be, I am just a dumb wolf that let his whole world, slip through.