Okay so…I’m going to be plain, open and straightforward about where I’m at mentally, but also just overall future outlook for me as an artist. I’ve done a lot of reflecting lately for myself as a person and also as an artist. I’ve come to realize that there’s not really much of anything that’s me out there other than my artstyle and maybe whoever watched me early on in DA days knew my fantasy species, the Nagendra. However it was put on hold for a while because life and school then just had zero thoughts on it and only just trying to get by in life. I was literally working and working and working. Then just other things in between to where I felt like I never really had much of a stamp out there beyond the little things I did, but it’s all muted now. It’s kind of sad in a way and I’m not much one to look at likes or follower count because I have never been in that area as a freelance artist or close. But after so many years and seeing the counts I realized I never even reached 5k or even 3k. Ten years and just never being at the range or level I always dreamt of being.

I’m not blaming anyone but myself and just how life went to where I’m at now. I can see the opportunity and I gotta take it. So after my current queue is up I won’t be taking any more comms for a while and maybe only small ones in between things. I just feel like it’s all I do or have in my art along with my style. I’ve also just always worked and worked and worked and worked. It’s just not healthy to always be working yet in an economy such as ours I can’t really take the blame fully.

I’ve just recently moved to a new place that’s more roomier and in a better location and much more affordable to where I feel like I can relieve myself by focusing on me for a while after I come home from long work days and just enjoy my art again and also concentrate on things I want to do and share what I have. Basically kick my own ass and do art for me and start fresh and do what I want for a change. Seize control really. I wanna rework my fantasy headworld and also get my sci-fi world going too along with other self indulgent art for myself and friends close to me over the years that I’ve always wanted to spoil.

Not exactly a super cheerful journal but a hopeful one and an update of just where I’m at personally and what I’d like to do going forward from now on. So thanks for the support over the years guys <3 Really appreciate it and always have.