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3 years ago
Well... It's been a while since I've written another journal and written anything that's been going on again. I did say I promised that I was going to open commissions the other time but I can tell that didn't help at all lol. You can say that I'm lazy or I've got too many things wrapped up in my mind (in fact, it's way too many things inside my head that I've been keeping). Whatever the case, I apologize it's been so long. Recently, I've started a stream and did a few sketches and shared on my Twitter account and I'm pretty active there. Good news, however, I have another story planned out for Lugia Day (late as fuck) so I hope you are looking forward to that project coming around. Nothing much has changed since I've gotten home but I seriously do miss everyone at EF. It was an amazing trip and a good break so I think I'm good for some personal projects but first, I need to address a few things about my personal health. With that being said, I would like to discuss about my own future. Right now, my mental health hasn't been going so well honestly and I feel like I need a bit more time and help.
What's next?
Personally, I think it's best if I seek out full-time employment up to this point (or go back to the same place I was working before, doesn't matter) because I needed some income for traveling and I think I prefer to travel more often than stay at a basement forever. I plan on moving out of there anyway but for now, I've been seeking therapy right now and I've been avoiding this for a long time but I think it's the right time to do it now. Also, the issue is, I'll have to probably work at that place for longer periods of times so there won't be much going on. Unless I decide to create a Patreon (for writing purposes) or commissions, I'm not sure yet. Personally, I think this was all my fault for not doing much of anything and I spent most of my funds on Eurofurence so I probably won't be back there at least 2 or 3 years. A work-at-home job and experience just won't be enough because it'll take more than 5 or 6 years for me to get there. The reality is, each plane ticket costs over $2,000 CAD to get there (including the costs of a hotel). That's not something that I wanted. At least these are my next plans of action in my own life. And I'm still practicing with my digital art abilities as I go along... We'll see... *sigh* For now, I'm still uncertain about myself and it has been very hard for me.
Will you still do vores?
Whenever I have the time for that, yes. That is not going away anytime soon lol. I will always have some sort of idea going on for my fluffy fursonas. In fact, I actually have plans on 'changing' a few things about these character's lore but not too much. For example, I wasn't always satisfied with Vanilla's backstory and I plan on doing it a little bit differently. When I left DA and did that convoluted story, I was not happy with it and I'm sure a lot of readers out there are not either. It just made it way too confusing in my opinion so I really wanted to make that story as simple as possible. Chocolate's backstory will also be slightly different as well and Mint's as well. Strawberry will remain the same because I think that story with her was perfect. It fits for her character I think. So some slight changes but not TOO much.
What changes will there be for Vanilla's, Chocolate's, and Mint's lore
This I cannot say. However, I feel like there should be some improvements to make sense for these stories to tell. I feel like I confuse a lot of my readers and currently, I've been writing a timeline to help myself and the readers' out so that way, I can create these backstories as believable as possible. You gotta remember, these stories were written waaaay back at the mid-2010s lol so I was completely young at those days. But now that I feel like I'm wising up, I feel like I can do better than before. I hope you look forward to them.
I've heard you wanted to stream more often. Is this true?
Yes, and I've got the proper equipment to do it. However, there are two problems I am facing: Avatar creating and picking the right software. While I am able to use my .vrm files, I am unable to actually figure out how to get the right software. Plus, I think I would prefer if I had actually commissioned someone on doing this for me lol. I am not a serious computer geek and, unfortunately, I am no 'PC person.' I've relied too heavily on Macs but this maaaay change in the near future. I had serious plans on getting a PC myself as a secondary computer. Maybe with some few games but I do have a capture card that works here but I would love to find someway for an avatar to work and be interactive for the chat. If there are some smart people out there that knows this kind of stuff, I'm definitely listening. Whether it is a 3D avatar or a simple .png avatar. Either way, I just want my avatar to be whacked on upside the head lol. I've been watching heavily on Rich's stream and I kiiiinda want to do it just for fun. Not doing this for being a serious streamer mind you. Just something for fun really. If you got anything that may help me of what programs I can use on a macOS, please share. I can always switch to Windows but that's not my preferred operating system to use.
Do you game on PC?
Depends on the circumstances. So the answer is, not really. I prefer to use a living room and game with my PS5 or on Switch. But I think having the option of a PC would be nice so I don't know if that will be the main computer or not. It all depends how this goes for me. I prefer my stuff to be simple and quick. However, if there are more software options on PC, I probably would use that these circumstances. I managed to get 3Tene to work on a Mac but can't get my main avatar to work unfortunately. It'll import but no dice on the lip syncing, nor blinking. Perhaps it's the weak webcam. Anyway, that's the situation I'm also stuck on as well and something that I have to deal with. I'm sure there are options out there for this computer but I can't seem to find them. I hope I can look for it myself. Anyways, no, I still prefer to game on a console and would rather just be using my capture card from there. The Elegato Capture HD60+ is excellent and it works here beautifully.
Are you feeling better after Eurofurence?
Yes, I feel better after leaving the room and traveling overseas to visit my friends. However, I've heard they got sick afterwards but I'm sure they're recovering fine. I do wish that I can go to MFF but there are limitations that I can do for myself so I have to stay. Writing this journal and talking about my feelings is making me a lot better actually. Just some things to get out of my chest. Sometimes I learned it's a good thing to vent once in a while. I'm still fighting off my post-con depression but it was a good feeling seeing a lot of new friends and old ones as well. I've been gone for so long, I don't even know my own uploading schedule anymore.
Will you recover from this?
I honestly don't know. It's pretty bad as I thought and I kept ignoring it for so long, I don't even know if I can recover from this or not but I'm doing everything I can to go back to my normal ways. All I need is A LOT of time and I hope the therapy plan will work. I don't know what it's all like. Some say it can help and others say it gets worse. I just hope it helps so I can't say for sure. If I had it my way, I would've seen my own doctor but he has retired unfortunately so nothing I can do about that.
Projects you're working on?
Considering that I've been keeping projects around, I've been working on the Lugia Day project (which will be uploaded very very late anyway). The story will not have any of my characters but will have a Pikachu fighting a Lugia so I'll put it that way. Also, for people who praised my artwork, that puts a lot of thought onto me and I thank you for that. I have been working on things very slowly but once again, I think having a job may help my mental health (a job that makes me happy at the least).
1. Lugia Project (will upload soonish)
2. A Catdragon's Healing (Vore)
3. Vanilla in Living Room (Vore)
4. In the Forest (Don't know how this will go)
Will heal soon and thanks for sticking around with me for this long,
~DragonX1010
What's next?
Personally, I think it's best if I seek out full-time employment up to this point (or go back to the same place I was working before, doesn't matter) because I needed some income for traveling and I think I prefer to travel more often than stay at a basement forever. I plan on moving out of there anyway but for now, I've been seeking therapy right now and I've been avoiding this for a long time but I think it's the right time to do it now. Also, the issue is, I'll have to probably work at that place for longer periods of times so there won't be much going on. Unless I decide to create a Patreon (for writing purposes) or commissions, I'm not sure yet. Personally, I think this was all my fault for not doing much of anything and I spent most of my funds on Eurofurence so I probably won't be back there at least 2 or 3 years. A work-at-home job and experience just won't be enough because it'll take more than 5 or 6 years for me to get there. The reality is, each plane ticket costs over $2,000 CAD to get there (including the costs of a hotel). That's not something that I wanted. At least these are my next plans of action in my own life. And I'm still practicing with my digital art abilities as I go along... We'll see... *sigh* For now, I'm still uncertain about myself and it has been very hard for me.
Will you still do vores?
Whenever I have the time for that, yes. That is not going away anytime soon lol. I will always have some sort of idea going on for my fluffy fursonas. In fact, I actually have plans on 'changing' a few things about these character's lore but not too much. For example, I wasn't always satisfied with Vanilla's backstory and I plan on doing it a little bit differently. When I left DA and did that convoluted story, I was not happy with it and I'm sure a lot of readers out there are not either. It just made it way too confusing in my opinion so I really wanted to make that story as simple as possible. Chocolate's backstory will also be slightly different as well and Mint's as well. Strawberry will remain the same because I think that story with her was perfect. It fits for her character I think. So some slight changes but not TOO much.
What changes will there be for Vanilla's, Chocolate's, and Mint's lore
This I cannot say. However, I feel like there should be some improvements to make sense for these stories to tell. I feel like I confuse a lot of my readers and currently, I've been writing a timeline to help myself and the readers' out so that way, I can create these backstories as believable as possible. You gotta remember, these stories were written waaaay back at the mid-2010s lol so I was completely young at those days. But now that I feel like I'm wising up, I feel like I can do better than before. I hope you look forward to them.
I've heard you wanted to stream more often. Is this true?
Yes, and I've got the proper equipment to do it. However, there are two problems I am facing: Avatar creating and picking the right software. While I am able to use my .vrm files, I am unable to actually figure out how to get the right software. Plus, I think I would prefer if I had actually commissioned someone on doing this for me lol. I am not a serious computer geek and, unfortunately, I am no 'PC person.' I've relied too heavily on Macs but this maaaay change in the near future. I had serious plans on getting a PC myself as a secondary computer. Maybe with some few games but I do have a capture card that works here but I would love to find someway for an avatar to work and be interactive for the chat. If there are some smart people out there that knows this kind of stuff, I'm definitely listening. Whether it is a 3D avatar or a simple .png avatar. Either way, I just want my avatar to be whacked on upside the head lol. I've been watching heavily on Rich's stream and I kiiiinda want to do it just for fun. Not doing this for being a serious streamer mind you. Just something for fun really. If you got anything that may help me of what programs I can use on a macOS, please share. I can always switch to Windows but that's not my preferred operating system to use.
Do you game on PC?
Depends on the circumstances. So the answer is, not really. I prefer to use a living room and game with my PS5 or on Switch. But I think having the option of a PC would be nice so I don't know if that will be the main computer or not. It all depends how this goes for me. I prefer my stuff to be simple and quick. However, if there are more software options on PC, I probably would use that these circumstances. I managed to get 3Tene to work on a Mac but can't get my main avatar to work unfortunately. It'll import but no dice on the lip syncing, nor blinking. Perhaps it's the weak webcam. Anyway, that's the situation I'm also stuck on as well and something that I have to deal with. I'm sure there are options out there for this computer but I can't seem to find them. I hope I can look for it myself. Anyways, no, I still prefer to game on a console and would rather just be using my capture card from there. The Elegato Capture HD60+ is excellent and it works here beautifully.
Are you feeling better after Eurofurence?
Yes, I feel better after leaving the room and traveling overseas to visit my friends. However, I've heard they got sick afterwards but I'm sure they're recovering fine. I do wish that I can go to MFF but there are limitations that I can do for myself so I have to stay. Writing this journal and talking about my feelings is making me a lot better actually. Just some things to get out of my chest. Sometimes I learned it's a good thing to vent once in a while. I'm still fighting off my post-con depression but it was a good feeling seeing a lot of new friends and old ones as well. I've been gone for so long, I don't even know my own uploading schedule anymore.
Will you recover from this?
I honestly don't know. It's pretty bad as I thought and I kept ignoring it for so long, I don't even know if I can recover from this or not but I'm doing everything I can to go back to my normal ways. All I need is A LOT of time and I hope the therapy plan will work. I don't know what it's all like. Some say it can help and others say it gets worse. I just hope it helps so I can't say for sure. If I had it my way, I would've seen my own doctor but he has retired unfortunately so nothing I can do about that.
Projects you're working on?
Considering that I've been keeping projects around, I've been working on the Lugia Day project (which will be uploaded very very late anyway). The story will not have any of my characters but will have a Pikachu fighting a Lugia so I'll put it that way. Also, for people who praised my artwork, that puts a lot of thought onto me and I thank you for that. I have been working on things very slowly but once again, I think having a job may help my mental health (a job that makes me happy at the least).
1. Lugia Project (will upload soonish)
2. A Catdragon's Healing (Vore)
3. Vanilla in Living Room (Vore)
4. In the Forest (Don't know how this will go)
Will heal soon and thanks for sticking around with me for this long,
~DragonX1010
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Travelling is a great experience! I've never been out of my home country, we had the chance to, but someone in my family messed it up and we couldn't go to that wedding. Disappointing, sure because I didn't have any source of income then, but I didn't know if I was ready step out of my country then. I have been to Queensland, and that's quite the holiday for me. If you already live in a massive city, this would be less exciting for you, but because I liv in a small town and have explored every corner, it's an awesome experience to go there. There's lots of places to see around the world, and honestly I want to explore it all. It all looks great! But moving from my opinion on travelling, I hope all goes well for the future of this account and yourself! And I wish you the best on your job search if you decide to go for full-time employment.
