This read will not be pleasant.

I'm ever frustrated how this chunk of a year panned out.
Dealing with an unexpected loss. Left Angry. Sad. Confused. Which I get no satisfying justice over.
My PC died. So I need to acquire a new one.
I've not partook much any arts since the unexpected loss of life. It's been...3 months now.
I've reached peak frustration with my current work that I still worked with for coming 8 years now. So I say but I find old posts from myself on Tumblr and Facebook on how much it reminds me that I hate this job. But I gotta keep rolling the money despite how I feel about it. But I must fight for more pay. I personally feel unfair practices at hand with certain wage bills passing in this city/state.

Work leaves me wrecked after every shift. My dreams become work. Losing more sleep than I usually would. Taking on responsibilities from the life loss adds more tax to my fatigue.

Despite trying so hard. Every action is unsatisfying. I'm ever reconfirming the uselessness that is me. People telling me of feats that don't exist in me as if they know who I am. Just some puppet whose strings can be pulled with relative ease and pointless of me trying to cut those strings or pretend it's not there.
I really don't have much further motivations for the duration of my life. I had 2 Motivations and they're no longer walking with my on this earth.
I've nothing to prove, No one I care to impress.
I want to stop working and rot.