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Baftday Journal 2023
2 years ago
On my previous Baftday Journal I spoke of fighting for more pay at my job. It was unsuccessful. Waited to the start of this year, gave them a THREE weeks notice, cashed out my PTO and quit for 7 months.
Thought I was gonna enjoy time off work with the money saved. It ended being a downward spiral where many a thing breaks down.
Had went to the ER for chest pains, which were not heart attack related so I'm sitting with that outstanding bill.
A friend of mines having a rough time seeing their newborn baby as the baby's mother keeps them apart. Our meetups is never good news before we attempt to enjoy a session of Yugioh duel monsters.
Tried looking for work myself around July. Failed to do so and thus tucking my tail and went back to the company I quit from. This time with higher pay but the same nonsense that came with it. And Part-Time to boot.
Art wise is not great news either. My desire to draw is fading every time I put that tablet on my lap, even for a hobby to pass time with. It brings me little joy. With my motivators are resting in heaven. I've not successfully found a new source of motivation to actively continue the pursuit of art. May just end up being a customer to other artists and make them draw my ideas. All I'm good for is money nowadays. Much useless in every other category.
Not a declaration of quitting. tomorrow's another new day with unexpected twist and turns. Living the moment and what that moment gives me, be it good or bad.
Thought I was gonna enjoy time off work with the money saved. It ended being a downward spiral where many a thing breaks down.
Had went to the ER for chest pains, which were not heart attack related so I'm sitting with that outstanding bill.
A friend of mines having a rough time seeing their newborn baby as the baby's mother keeps them apart. Our meetups is never good news before we attempt to enjoy a session of Yugioh duel monsters.
Tried looking for work myself around July. Failed to do so and thus tucking my tail and went back to the company I quit from. This time with higher pay but the same nonsense that came with it. And Part-Time to boot.
Art wise is not great news either. My desire to draw is fading every time I put that tablet on my lap, even for a hobby to pass time with. It brings me little joy. With my motivators are resting in heaven. I've not successfully found a new source of motivation to actively continue the pursuit of art. May just end up being a customer to other artists and make them draw my ideas. All I'm good for is money nowadays. Much useless in every other category.
Not a declaration of quitting. tomorrow's another new day with unexpected twist and turns. Living the moment and what that moment gives me, be it good or bad.
Theeenks
Gaming has become tiring for me. I picked up the tablet again and draw a lot.
A lot a lot.
Almost hurt myself drawing.
I'm getting reckless. And I shouldn't be. I've much responsibilities and I've no room to cripple myself. Yet it's so easy for me to do. And my brain wants to operate on the easy ways out.