Maybe, at the end of the day, I deserve what happens to me, even something that I did to try and help ended in disaster, I've lost a lot of friends this year and, maybe there's a reason? Maybe, I'm just not worth it.

I feel worthless, worthless as a friend, worthless as a son, worthless as a brother, why would anyone care?

I love my friends but, maybe y'all are better off without me? I don't know, all that I know is "existing" is all that I'm really good at.

I'm sorry, if disappointed and failed so many people, I deserve anything that happens to me, I'm sorry.