[vent] quick mental health update
3 years ago
Hey, everyone, I'm REAL sorry I haven't posted anything or made much progress on my work in a little while. I've been having a HORRIBLE past few months, and my mental health has completely tanked as a result.
My depression's been on and off for the past few years, but it's just kind of peaked lately. The past few months have just been... miserable, honestly. I haven't been keeping track of my hygiene, I've gained a bit of weight, I've just kind of... gotten close to giving up, honestly. I've had suicidal thoughts recently, and they've done nothing but just hammer in how unhappy I am lately... I'm sorry for dumping all of these unhappy thoughts on everyone like this, but I really just need to get it out.
I've been feeling a serious dip in quality in my writing lately, whether due to a lack of motivation or just being out of practice, I haven't felt good about anything I've created recently, honestly. I know everyone loves my stuff, but my general universe my characters take place in, my writing of them, gifts I've made for people... they just haven't felt up to the same standard that I've put most of my stuff, I suppose. I've had a few really good friends to relax with lately, and that's sort of helped out, but... fuck, I don't know. I'm really not doing the best lately.
If I don't respond to you or just seem low energy lately, please don't worry, I'll get back to you. My brain's probably distracted with something else or I'm just... not in the mood to answer anyone lately. I'll have periods where I feel better every now and then. I'm just... sorry if I seem lifeless or like I don't like you. I'm doing my best.
My depression's been on and off for the past few years, but it's just kind of peaked lately. The past few months have just been... miserable, honestly. I haven't been keeping track of my hygiene, I've gained a bit of weight, I've just kind of... gotten close to giving up, honestly. I've had suicidal thoughts recently, and they've done nothing but just hammer in how unhappy I am lately... I'm sorry for dumping all of these unhappy thoughts on everyone like this, but I really just need to get it out.
I've been feeling a serious dip in quality in my writing lately, whether due to a lack of motivation or just being out of practice, I haven't felt good about anything I've created recently, honestly. I know everyone loves my stuff, but my general universe my characters take place in, my writing of them, gifts I've made for people... they just haven't felt up to the same standard that I've put most of my stuff, I suppose. I've had a few really good friends to relax with lately, and that's sort of helped out, but... fuck, I don't know. I'm really not doing the best lately.
If I don't respond to you or just seem low energy lately, please don't worry, I'll get back to you. My brain's probably distracted with something else or I'm just... not in the mood to answer anyone lately. I'll have periods where I feel better every now and then. I'm just... sorry if I seem lifeless or like I don't like you. I'm doing my best.
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