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Depression, Anxiety another Birthday surmounted
3 years ago
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Half a year passes seemingly Instantly~
Sizeable Life Update
2022, for me, has been somewhat radically up and down (medical, emotional, attending Cons again)
Doing my best to be on track with sorting things out towards more harmony, just been a fair amount on this year (and as I'm typing this up I can feel tears threatening to spill up n out again)
. . . I would not have described myself as an 'anxious' person before thia year: but now .. I'm not so sure anymore
It's either developed in something fierce (or mebbe that always been there much deeper under the surface with a smilier-facade a mile wide to cover over that normally?) *And I can't tell which? ;_:
Mostly in the field of relationships: there's been some pretty drastic changes and I'm left feeling pretty harrowed in that regard I think ;_: (that appears to be one arena in particular that cuts me up pretty deeply when it's shaken or suffering)
I'm seeking out seeing a Therapist (for the first time ever) week after next: and whilst I'm typically the first on the front line recommended this to -literally everyone-
— I can't help feeling like that might not do me too much good¿? (Obviously, still going to attend to check for some other potential chemical issues also, rule them out or confirm)
But in regards to talking in confidence with someone: think I'm fairly open with the swath of kind folks whom are sweet enough to lend me their respective ears and shoulders (and I'm a massive proponent of self-introspection, very much trying to be on top of that as much as I can a bunch of the time around the edges/any things that might be sitting strange)
.. .. shall see what comes about of the visit next I guess?
Oh and I guess I'm 36 now also (for some reason I thought I was turning 37¿?
Workflow has changed Radically
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- Might be opening up the option for buying ConBadges again soon also (in time for Conventioning/Con Pick-ups in 2023)
- Though I'm honestly [more Active Daily over on Telegram] (though I try to check things here when I can too)
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• I host In-Stream Art Events a few days a month each month which run Pay What You Want
(over a minimum of at least 30$aud starting with rough head sketches)
Those are generally a pretty fun party event too, non-buyers always welcome also! ♥ ^_^
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https://carniart.com/kofi/
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And, finding a therapist is always a good idea. Even if you think it might not do much good- even if it doesn't do much good, it'll help discover certain things about yourself that you'll not perhaps have realized, or even affirm certain aspects about yourself you may have questioned. When a professional is there to do something, and they do it, it really shows. I hope you have good luck with them, and when you do have one that they can help in ways you never would've thought they could!
I meant to say, with the pandemic, everyone has pices of their lives/themselves they are picking up, so it means.... you breaking or just reaching the end of yourself is going to be a new normal, as unfun as it is. That's why the rest of us are around, to carry you and each other. :>
I was seriously depressed in my 30s, but found that correct diagnosis and good therapy helped a lot. I'm now over 60 and not dead yet. XD
but OH DEAR im sorry to hear about how it was
i said it on stream and ill say here again
happy late bday to you can ry
is normal to feel anxious from time to time and its a right choice to seek professional help on the area
maybe you feel that way on one area but you are an ace on others
hell no further
one can give a conference but cant make a line to save its life XD
you are strong carni and we be there for you in the only way we can
so even if it takes to bother you on the notes again so be it XD
human relationships are a mess and a pain but finding a kind person who is open to listen you in dept and with the confidence to express this matters is awalys a step away from atomized carni
we be on touch
your pal and friend
sujeto delta
pd: smile for another year cuz the neo 20s chaos is far from over but we make it together
I think that therapy is likely a good idea too though, you are on the right track with that. Do keep in mind that not all therapists are created equal... it's important to find one that seems knowledgeable and respectful, and there is no shame in changing therapists if one just isn't vibing with you or if they seem to have an agenda of some kind (someone I know once had a therapist who really wanted to push her into a DX that she very clearly didn't have, but that would have necessitated expensive treatment--she clearly saw someone who was struggling as a money bag to be manipulated for her own gain). But a good therapist can surprise you by offering some useful tools for dealing with your feelings, and can provide some alternate perspectives.
In any case, I wish you luck with feeling better, and hoping that 2023 is a better one for ya. And happy late birthday, too!
— Think a rather new perspective of considering some recuring issues has touched on and unpicked down closer to the core of a persistant hardship is proving to be (... .. well devastating) but useful towards actually seeing things a a bit clearer and making better sense of it
it's early days considering it as such: but it really is clicking a lot of sense into place too
You are a sweet soul Scully~ (and even if we do not converse on the regular: I do indeed still consider you a friend through the years) ♥
— Have (just this week) come into a new perspective that is making a lot of sense on a number of fronts too actually. (and have talked things over with said partner.. ... .. well, 'not quite that anymore¿?') and whilst they will be taking more time to consider, mull through and feel out their own interpretations and reacts to the musings, their initial reaction is seemingly along the lines of '..this probably checks out actually'
And whilst it's utterly heart-breaking for me: probably sad (but also a release) for them also - it's better to be realistic about what is closer to the truth and move forward accordingly (than to deny or ignore what 'is real, but didn't quite have the words for it before'
Life will continue regardless
I wish you all the best with it Carni :D I hope you can get yourself to a point where you feel "better".
It was about what I expected