You set your own pace hun.
Mental health is important. When I'm in a bad mental state I try to find something that's fun to me, which could be anything, as simple as a stroll through a park.

TY u-u* i just feel my pace is too long winded.....
I try and do the same, right now i don't have the key to the house, (and my parents kicked out my friend who invited me to his house which was way less chaotic while also sepparating me from him IRL) Now i feel literally alone,...but i try to occupy myself with entertainement or youtube, just whatever fun content will make it easier on my mind. i try to just go to bed, sleep if possible and as much as possible, but it only can work so much, as there is a limit to sleep (and when i get sleep disorder or insomnia due to stress or trauma, i might not even get even that

That sucks, but I'm glad you're hanging in there. Maybe try writing out your stories first? As an attempt to stay on topic?

Yeah ;w; thank you tho...at first i kind of felt of it as kind ofa defeat, like i can't draw so i will be writing all this, because i failed at drawing it all, and my goal was not meant ot be a writer (and i feel inadequate at it). But i think i might start writing these things down, specially when such a storm of fantasies and ideas come to me as it's happened and it may be a waste to just let them drop off the face of the earth even if they're in text form

I hope you can feel better soon... your mental health is important to us and we care a lot about you ❤

Thanks...i don't know how i can feel better...i've wanted to get help for years to no avail, i fear dealing with this untreated for so many years already caused me physiological problems or something. I don't know what to do, i don't want to live like this. I can't turn to my mom, she says i don't follow treatment (but i feel the treatment doesn't help, i don't think she understand the effect the enviroment and conditions have had, and are having on me), my dad isn't able to do anything, and i'm too useless as an adult to go out and do things on my own.

i think i need to write, or force myself to draw or find some sort of outlet, i dont really wanna be alone in my mind with my thoughts, or around my enviroment

Hey there...read this and thought about you and your situation...you know something even as simple as making your bed, tidying your room and getting outside can clear your mind and make all the difference in the world. And never be afraid to draw what you love. If it's your passion, then never let that go. I wish the best for you.

Hiya Ed u.u* thank you so much <3 i saw that you had an FA a few months ago, the only reason i didn't watch you was because this page i often pour some of my more depressed/perverted or weird journals and art, and i was afraid if you found it, you'd be exposed to my stupid repetitive commission ads, and my venting--i already go a little coo coo on facebook as it is >w>,, i didn't want to alienate the friendship with my FA antics

It is not that i am not glad or interested that you are here on FA too, that's not it at all.

I appreciate your concern and your tips, the truth is i cannot go outside since the beginning of this year, my family changed our worn out door, and i am still waiting for them to make copies of the keys for me. But organizing the room sounds like a good idea, you should see (actually, you shouldn't see, come to think of it) the state of my room, it's very messy--but i found that does help me out in focusing on that and makes a difference, the last time i did it was when i started storing my displayed action figures away, however, it has become a mess again. (Depression has that debilitating side effect of "letting yoursef go from taking care of yourself/things", before you know it, it looks like an episode of hoarders lol.) I will try it for sure, it's helped before.

And okies, thank you...drawing (and i guess at some point it was "becoming an artist") is my life passion...when i can't do it, i feel part of me is void, since it's linked to myself as a person so profoundly...
I am often afraid because what i love can be distasteful, low quality, or have no artistic value...but these words coming from you have an entirely different effect, i will take them to heart, and never let go.

I am so happy to read from you again, and recently, a friend which i missed a lot too, i am sorry that it was under this circumstance, but i am still happy. I feel very happy and fortunate that you'd have me as a friend. I really wished that could be, the most, but i wasn't sure if it was meant to be.

I wish all the best for you too.