So

Since Wednesday I have lowered my antidepressants because of the heavy side effects I've had for a couple of years, shortly will I continue without them (Still have some different meds to use if having emotional spike).
Currently I've got more emotions than before which result in more art (Still sketching/working on lines, I'm getting better with staying focused) but I'll most likely receive a setback later.. maybe.

I'm not "cured" from depression, only reached the point were meds do more damage than good. Not being able to express myself and only building up more and more emotions I can never vent out wears me out. With some luck I've learned to cope with issues differently which will make me less vulnerable. Surely the past years been extremely rough for me but I'd never make it without getting forced into healthcare and put on meds.
I see my state more.. dormant.

Apart from this have I found a goal I'm working on (where to live) which I will keep moving forward towards, while the other challenge falls in; That I need to accept that I'll always be alone. It's not something to "hope you'll find someone" because the way I live my life, doesn't make it possible. I never been the type who rely on others, there's been too many issues or failed expectations, therefore I forced myself forward in life. Its nothing to pity for, its just how its supposed to be for me.

Spent some hours today removing heavier vents from the past to prevent getting constantly hammered by memories plus some of the past pictures were.. a slight too much.

Work wise its less exhausting since we had quite a swap out of people which means less unfair workload plus more people I get along with.

Art wise, as already mentioned; More emotions from me means more art, I'm holding strongly on to focus my art on emotions and expressions.
Bumping my CM:s a last time here because next year will my prices increase
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10363694/