I got some unsettling news.. Very depressing news that got me so PISSED. So depressed... I will not say who, I will not say what, and I will not say why. But it makes me want to reach into my chest, pull out my beating heart, and destroy it. I am sick of feeling like this. I am sick of the jealousy, the anger, the pain. I am tired of this... Living is such a chore... I wish I could be done with it. I want to give up... I am so tired. I am so exhausted. I am full of only hate... All of those happy people... All of them. I damn them all to hell! You all can just... Whatever you do, I will not care.
I am feeling so hurt. So alone. So... Just... Dead inside... Really... I need to be done with it. I am so angry. So sad... But sadly, my parents won't let me do anything. The only merciful thing they can do is let me go... But they refuse to do that. I need to get out of here...

This is a vent journal. I have nowhere to say it. Nowhere to write it...

All in all, I am just... dead.