Welp...Christmas is almost upon us and next month after the new year...I hit the big 35...mid-life....god I'm old. Also sorry I don't often post as much anymore guys. Just....a lot of mental issues in my head...mostly from depression and stuff thanks to a certain someone I won't mention, but...ugh. I feel as if I haven't achieved anything in life...no job still, no girlfriend(really...who'd want someone like me?)...I live by myself(technically with my sister and I stay above the garage but still), and...I honestly can't enjoy any good things or any accomplishments I've done. I got 2 stories on fanfic and a03 that have their own TV Trope pages, I got a Let's Play channel...I haven't' touched in a long while due to my ps4 overheating(gonna try and get a new one next month), I have my pics here on FA and DA...and got a lot of watches admittedly, but...I don't feel proud of any of that sadly.

I don't mean to ramble on and waste your time with me, but...I'm about to hit mid-life and I've done nothing of value or to contribute to society...and I easily get depressed and can't enjoy anything anymore...and despite all the love I get from my friends and family...I still feel like a disappointment and will never earn the approval of a certain someone.

I just hope next year...things will turn around for me, otherwise...I'm just gonna be a sad man who's wasted his life on things he enjoys and has a self-esteem that's been shattered to atoms, and feels I will never earn the approval of that person...