Ah, my life...in journal form

But eventually the day comes when you go to try it anyway again x3

Well i need to be alone to feel good, and with this cold it's hard to wanting to go outside ^^

but yeah, i miss friends too...

Everyone says the internet connects people but i hear often it can cause also the opposite

And it's freezing indeed !
Can't remember we had such an "cold" sub-zero winter since years.

it connects people who wants to be connected, many time i wanted to meet irl, but it's always a NO ^^

If it's always shit when you hang out with people, and you've done some introspection already - maybe you just need to find different people :s

Funny that you mention this now, i just had yesterday the same realisation after a long ongoing struggling and self-debating.

It's better to focus on the people who show you affection and makes you feel like interested in you as whole , not just some "on-off button entertainment system" that you use from time to time.

I'm not that naive to not know that any kind of relationship is a giving and taking and requires compromises and borders , but if there's no fair balance between any relationships, it's more like using each other for the own good.