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3 years ago
2022 ends just as it began for me, depressing.
I've had a really stressful year, to add to a stressful and depressing past couple of years. I've been quiet here about what's going on, but I've had several family and personal problems come up all year. I've been having a lot of work problems, my Grandma was diagnosed with dementia late in the summer, and my Mom had surgery for a benign ovarian cyst after falling ill in July. I also ended a very long friendship with someone I thought was a friend, after 15 years.
Work has dragged me down multiple times this year. I work for the lumber and building supply industry, and I drive a small 3/4 ton truck for what is supposed to be small deliveries. But work, in an effort to save money, expects me to haul out at maximum payload (2000 lbs) and run loads that are more suitable for our larger flatbed trucks. My limbs are taking a toll from constantly hand-loading and unloading maximum weight payloads and driving 200 miles a day around Central Ohio. I've said something about this to management multiple times, and it just never lets up. My back, arms, and shoulders constantly feel it. As I enter my fourth year, I sit on a 50/50 chance of leaving sometime this year if things don't improve.
Family crises; My Grandma started showing signs of dementia back in the spring. My uncle stepped in after Grandma started hallucinating, and we discovered that she was over medicating herself. Reporting this to her doctor, he ordered some additional testing that led to the discovery of dementia. She was very upset and still is upset over losing the ability to drive, and over the past several months, I've witnessed her memory degrade further. I'm helping my uncle care for her, and it's been a very exhausting ordeal. My Mom went to the hospital in mid July for severe abdominal pain, and doctors found a mass on her ovaries that needed surgery. What thankfully turned out to be benign was a real worry that it could have been ovarian cancer. I helped tend to her as she recovered. It really worried me that I may have to think about the worst.
I've had some personal problems this year. I had a freakout in October for a skin cancer scare that thankfully turned out to be just a normal mole. On top of work woes, I ended a very long friendship with a furry who had basically introduced me to the fandom through their artwork 15 years ago. Someone who I thought I could trust, someone I was very fond with, who unfortunately decided to just lie and deceive. Someone who helped inspire my own creations. I had enough, especially when I paid them to do a commission they offered to me, and never finished, and always had excuses for why it never got done, but could do other people's works? Thanks for wasting my time, "friend".
In all, 2022 was a drag, and I'm not feeling optimistic at all for '23. But the clock goes one way I guess. Hoping for my health and the family's health.
Happy New Years.
I've had a really stressful year, to add to a stressful and depressing past couple of years. I've been quiet here about what's going on, but I've had several family and personal problems come up all year. I've been having a lot of work problems, my Grandma was diagnosed with dementia late in the summer, and my Mom had surgery for a benign ovarian cyst after falling ill in July. I also ended a very long friendship with someone I thought was a friend, after 15 years.
Work has dragged me down multiple times this year. I work for the lumber and building supply industry, and I drive a small 3/4 ton truck for what is supposed to be small deliveries. But work, in an effort to save money, expects me to haul out at maximum payload (2000 lbs) and run loads that are more suitable for our larger flatbed trucks. My limbs are taking a toll from constantly hand-loading and unloading maximum weight payloads and driving 200 miles a day around Central Ohio. I've said something about this to management multiple times, and it just never lets up. My back, arms, and shoulders constantly feel it. As I enter my fourth year, I sit on a 50/50 chance of leaving sometime this year if things don't improve.
Family crises; My Grandma started showing signs of dementia back in the spring. My uncle stepped in after Grandma started hallucinating, and we discovered that she was over medicating herself. Reporting this to her doctor, he ordered some additional testing that led to the discovery of dementia. She was very upset and still is upset over losing the ability to drive, and over the past several months, I've witnessed her memory degrade further. I'm helping my uncle care for her, and it's been a very exhausting ordeal. My Mom went to the hospital in mid July for severe abdominal pain, and doctors found a mass on her ovaries that needed surgery. What thankfully turned out to be benign was a real worry that it could have been ovarian cancer. I helped tend to her as she recovered. It really worried me that I may have to think about the worst.
I've had some personal problems this year. I had a freakout in October for a skin cancer scare that thankfully turned out to be just a normal mole. On top of work woes, I ended a very long friendship with a furry who had basically introduced me to the fandom through their artwork 15 years ago. Someone who I thought I could trust, someone I was very fond with, who unfortunately decided to just lie and deceive. Someone who helped inspire my own creations. I had enough, especially when I paid them to do a commission they offered to me, and never finished, and always had excuses for why it never got done, but could do other people's works? Thanks for wasting my time, "friend".
In all, 2022 was a drag, and I'm not feeling optimistic at all for '23. But the clock goes one way I guess. Hoping for my health and the family's health.
Happy New Years.
Vix