So... Since the new year is upon us soon, I thought I'd say some things I've been holding for a very long while, I was thinking of saying it all out when it was my birthday, but instead I'd thought I'd say it on the last day of the old year before we reach the new year. Keep in mind: this is from myself from whatever effort or critical thinking I've been doing and if it 'triggers' or offend anyone... well that's too bad for you because I'm expressing my thoughts I want to share even if it makes people have an odd need to try and make themselves not feel inadequate as their first response. In any case:

The first thing I want to bring light to is I've dealt with specific people (won't be naming any names here) from FA and also in Discord who are not only the type of people to turn their backs from me as well as stab me in the heart and back from their apparent faux-friendship, but they also had the gall to essentially lie to me and to others to make themselves feel like they're the good people or how their reasoning is justified while I'm the one left to suffer with the mental damage I've had to go through. I tend to not say anything because I feel as if I begin to speak up, it'll become something catastrophic in a sense where it'll only be drama left and right as I've had the bad habit in the past to cause a lot of issues on both parties. But even when I don't say anything, I'm the one that gets hurt in the end while the other party just move on with their life with their excuse of "I will forgive you and show you another act of mercy by giving you one last chance" when I made only 1 mistake, or how another would make up a disgruntle lie painting me as the bad guy for something that was mutual just to save face or whatever. Point of the matter is: there are people who done me wrong and in conjunction to that also caused other mutual friends and associates to diverge away from me without showing any real regard to my situation as all I've been seeing is them mostly orbiting around them, giving me such a black view on being good friends. I'm only thankful I found a good set of friends that help me find myself and be myself in a way where I am happy to be me and not try to bend or change myself to appease others, accepting me for myself. And to that I have to say, thanks  Bear213 for being that stable foundation to help me find my footing to enjoy being myself.

The Second thing isn't as long as the First, but it's more or less a rant and something I find somewhat annoying when I talk or witness people speaking out about 'Lucario' in general, pretty sure what people will say is usually the same on how "Lucario replaced Mewtwo, therefore we should hate on both the company and people who have one as an OC because we don't need Non-Legendary Pokemon to speak telepathically in movies for the plot" to that I have to say..... That's honestly without a doubt stupidly and kinda retardedly wrong, because 'technically' it was actually Pokemon Trainer who 'replaced' Mewtwo due to the connection that Trainer Red is the protagonist the player controls and could go and capture Mewtwo if they so wish. While Lucario actually replaced Pichu as the gimmick is their mechanic revolves around damage, with one being the type to do self-harm while the other is high risk-high reward in battle. Sure Lucario and Mewtwo have only 1 similar quirk being their neutral special..... So how many other characters in the roster have a very similar quirk to another character, not even counting DLCs since there's plenty of similarities they share with others. So the way how I see it; people just jumped on the Hate-Train, but their apparent destination was at the wrong junction if you look at the mechanics to it's core. Plus the 'Mewtwo' we have in Smash 4 and Ultimate is technically 'Newtwo' since the color schemes, body style, and even Mega-Y form is from the Genesect movie as the one from Melee is from the First and Return movies so if you wanna be even more technical then that: we were given another Mewtwo Pokemon but not THE Mewtwo back.

And the Final thing I want to share: I usually see artists left and right get so much backlash or shade for one drama or another. Either personal drama or business drama, it's always something I see around when artists are shoved into the spotlight to vilify them. It also doesn't help that when I try to be a nice guy to some of the other artists who don't have a drama file on them, they for some reason block me and make up a really huge level of a lie on "why we block you and don't want to do anything with you" without giving a proper and mature conversation to understand a reason why they block or clearing the air if they're mistaking you with someone else, or if they DO have a reason why but without any substantial evidence to back up their claims then it only makes them look even more petty and it doesn't go well with whatever image they're setting themselves up for. A wise artist once told me: "Artists are still people, they're human beings and should treat them as normal people." along with another wise artist told me "A good artists are the ones that are both respectful but firm with their clients as drawing is more or less a business to help sustain themselves." So to the people who just disrespect the artists for petty or personal reasons, you're doing yourself a disservice of representing yourself as a decent human being. As for those particular artists, or some who see themselves as a weird form of being a content creator, either be more civil with your future clients or don't bother if you'll only be cutting your own lifeline if you choose drawing as a business to sustain yourself.

With that being said; this is what I wanted to say, and to say it out because I want to freely express myself, be given a chance to say what's on my mind instead of silencing me or bringing up a mountain of pride to prevent me from being an individual to say what I want to say. Share what I want to share. I'm not perfect, no one is, but I won't be trying to let my voice be muted and just tossed around like a puppet as if I don't matter to anyone. Hope you guys have a good day/night, and stay safe.

See you in 2023, let's make it better