Hello everyone. so I want get some stuff out my chest. 2020-2022 been rough for me. I made so many mistakes even lost friendships. I wish I could explain but it kind of hurts me and some people that I do care. I understand about myself why I did it maybe I was scared or just stupid and make bad choices for myself and i never want do them again. I decided to take break from my friends servers (Dec to March) and if CFZ 2023 goes well or not. I probably decide fate on myself and fandom that I'm in. hopefully I can change and learn my mistake trying be more respectful, honest, mature and responsible.

Commission and stuff: I will be stopping commissioning people like 24/7 trying not get addicted instead of thinking about raining days. I will be posting some old arts and few 2022 art with new friends.

Friendship: what I have learn for my self destructive behaviour two of my close friends. I Need to stop rushing myself to make things worse. I'm going take things slow as possible. I hope I can be invited back to servers. I hope in the future I can have my close friend back if i don't rush myself and just take things slow. Trust and honestly for now I'm just going wait till whenever in the future they can message me and try get friendship back I just don't know how or where to start.

The future: For the future I going save up for going to EF or USA con in 2025 time. Oh course wanted send my lovely boyfriend to see me in august or next year. Maybe If I hit my goal of getting £10K instead mistake wasting my money on my Macaw Joel >v< and not having much money for fees and such. I wanted get another fursuit in the future.

Self refection: I have agree with my friends that they are worried about me. I understand that. I wish I could do better and avoid myself to make same mistakes. I don't want to self destructive behaviour and end up losing more friends that I hurt. I will try my hardest to be better person than last few years which I dug myself hole deeper.

Positive updates:

Project X/story: This info is top secret but in short. I have plan 10 to 12 part mini series into one big sci-fi story which could be done at end of year but part one and two will be done hopefully in end of May.

New Joel? well I am planning change my Sona with few updates not such on what but I do have ideas maybe Tiger Joel might appear soon who knows. stay toon for that in the future.

The end: I hope you understand. We all need to learn our mistakes and hope we can rebuild them and avoid it forever. always try try your best no matter what I love you and I hope I can improve myself to be better macaw.