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Life Update and Sona Fresh Start
2 years ago
So through the second part of 2022 and into 2023 I have done a lot of self reflection, and feel I'm in a much better place mentally then I was this time last year. I have changed a lot as a person, I'm more sociable, less pessimistic, I'm enjoying things more, and enjoying more thing's. I'm not looking at people and activities in the same negative way I used to before. I'm managing my negativity and outlooks in a better, healthier way.
One of the BIG, If not the biggest catalyst for this is the fact I have been diagnosed with ADHD, which is now being treated and the difference it has made to me is incredible. And I'm not over selling it when I say that, so much of my doubts and negative thoughts are much easier to handle, to logic out and to calm now that my brain isn't going a billion miles an hour obsessing over every little thing and going over every possible outcome of the smallest interaction.
With this internal, soul searching and just idle character development chat with folk, I at first thought that I had been writing the character of Voncloud wrong, that certain details were wrong and how I had been writing in was different. I also thought he was more a Dragon then a fox because that was a reflection of me. But I realise now that its not the species but the character that's wrong, or more, out of date.
Fox/Dragon Von was a reflection of me, My personality mixed with my life and experience rolled into an avatar. It was created at a much darker time in my life, when I was as close to my lowest point as was possible. It became my outlet, my way to express all that in a character. The Feeling of failing, the need for care and for someone else to take control at a stage where I felt like I had none. Being a recluse always watching from the outside, feeling like I can't get close to anyone whilst desperate to be close.
It was a bad time.
I have move passed that life, I have outgrown my avatar as it were. I have been obsessing a little over my Sona and character to the point of madness, not that I don't enjoy developing characters and what not, but It was getting frustrating until I realised I need to reboot. Redo the character based on me now.
So moving forward I am making a new Voncloud. One based on my current self and happier times from the past. As a child and probably into my early teen's Tigers were my thing. Alot of my influences or go tos were tigers. Video games, programs, tattoos you name it.
As such I will be recreating myself/sona/character as a White Tiger. Same name, and some of the same traits but most importantly, a fresh Start.
The Fox/Dragon Von will still be around but it will be retired as my avatar as it were, it is a chapter of my life that is now closed, and will remain as a reminder and a creative asset should it be needed.
So yeah, big ol change and update for you.
Cheerios!
One of the BIG, If not the biggest catalyst for this is the fact I have been diagnosed with ADHD, which is now being treated and the difference it has made to me is incredible. And I'm not over selling it when I say that, so much of my doubts and negative thoughts are much easier to handle, to logic out and to calm now that my brain isn't going a billion miles an hour obsessing over every little thing and going over every possible outcome of the smallest interaction.
With this internal, soul searching and just idle character development chat with folk, I at first thought that I had been writing the character of Voncloud wrong, that certain details were wrong and how I had been writing in was different. I also thought he was more a Dragon then a fox because that was a reflection of me. But I realise now that its not the species but the character that's wrong, or more, out of date.
Fox/Dragon Von was a reflection of me, My personality mixed with my life and experience rolled into an avatar. It was created at a much darker time in my life, when I was as close to my lowest point as was possible. It became my outlet, my way to express all that in a character. The Feeling of failing, the need for care and for someone else to take control at a stage where I felt like I had none. Being a recluse always watching from the outside, feeling like I can't get close to anyone whilst desperate to be close.
It was a bad time.
I have move passed that life, I have outgrown my avatar as it were. I have been obsessing a little over my Sona and character to the point of madness, not that I don't enjoy developing characters and what not, but It was getting frustrating until I realised I need to reboot. Redo the character based on me now.
So moving forward I am making a new Voncloud. One based on my current self and happier times from the past. As a child and probably into my early teen's Tigers were my thing. Alot of my influences or go tos were tigers. Video games, programs, tattoos you name it.
As such I will be recreating myself/sona/character as a White Tiger. Same name, and some of the same traits but most importantly, a fresh Start.
The Fox/Dragon Von will still be around but it will be retired as my avatar as it were, it is a chapter of my life that is now closed, and will remain as a reminder and a creative asset should it be needed.
So yeah, big ol change and update for you.
Cheerios!
So yeah, very eager to see this Tiger char developed! ^.^