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Birthday Retrospective
2 years ago
Hello Hello! So tomorrow, Feb 2. Will be my 30th birthday. Bye bye to the 20s and for sure a further solidification of no longer being a young adult, whatever that means. :3
When I turned 20 there was something I did and I had hoped that when I turned 30 I would do the same. I took time and just thought of everything that had happened in the past years. It was humbling and helped me to appreciate the journey. So today I spent some time doing that, I thought maybe I would share. I think its good to take a moment and appreciate the good and yes even the bad that got you where you are today. Appreciate what might be helping lead you into tomorrow. So yes Ill be talking about some sad things as well as happy things. Of course I wont be mentioning everything just some of the major things that come to mind. Also yes Im doing this to share, but Im also doing this for me. <3
20 - When I was 20 I moved in with my first roommate. The first time living with someone who wasn't family. Before this I was living with my Aunt. It was scary but so exciting. That night we stayed up all night playing Minecraft and having a few drinks, Tsk Tsk I know. The place had next to nothing but it didn't matter.
21 - Being open to legal drinking made for some fun bar nights. There was a dive bar within walking distance of my apartment and we'd go all the time, that's where we had my 21st birthday. No it didn't get wild. My 21st birthday was also the last time I saw my Step Dad. Him and my Mom had just split. It was a tough lesson. I did some dating around this time but nothing really came of it. I kind of learned maybe it just wasn't for me.
22 - This was the age I met furries, Babyfurs, and abdls for the first time. Until this point I had never even spoken to anyone with these interests. I had been an abdl my whole life but had just always pushed it down. After hours upon hours in the TCC deviantart chatroom I ended up taking a train to Seattle to go to Rainfurrest 2015. When that weekend was over it hurt so much and at the time I didn't know why. This ended up leading to where I am in life now. I had finally learned I wasn't alone and what I was missing in life. More on this later.
23 - For my 20s this year was probably the least eventful. I got my first car, until this point I was riding a scooter around. I continued working at my first major job and it was mostly just routine. Work, hang out with roommate, talk in chats.
24 - This year came with some hardships. My car had broken down, I wasn't able to take a trip to see Cody and Bleu. But this was also the year I went to the Abu warehouse and started to become a legit diaper snob, lol. This year is also when I was in a pretty bad accident in my 2nd car. The car was totaled and I had almost died. As bad as it was, it was an eye opener. It made me realize how much of my life I spent just working and not living. This was another big moment that lead to me being where I am now.
25 - Ooohh boy this is a big one! After the car accident, the person who hit me quickly claimed responsibility and that money got me my new car. That car would break the curse of cars dieing after a year. This year I went to visit Cody, Bleu, and Cody for the first time. It was amazing. This trip was when the topic was brought up of me potentially moving to live with them. When I flew back home I cried so much. Later that same year I would also go out to visit my Dad. It was the first time I had seen him in 7 years.
26 - This is the biggest one. The biggest year of my 20s. At the start of this year, for my birthday, I went out to visit Cody, Bleu, and Cody again. This is where the topic of moving was solidified. I said no, the end. Just kidding! I said yes. I had always wanted to move out of state and being here with them felt like home. Upon my weepy return I began telling everyone my plan. Folks were sad but very happy for me. In the time before moving I mended my relationship with my Mom, something I will forever be Thankful for. I even ended up telling her I was an abdl. I was so nervous to tell her and just as I should of assumed, it made no difference. When I told her she was actually worried it was something actually bad. Later that year I said my goodbyes and with Cody, someone I had met in person at that Rainfurrest, we packed up my car, the one from the accident, And drove home. The trip was so exciting, I had never done such a long road trip before. When we stopped halfway for the night we had to bring my computer upstairs to the hotel room. It was hilarious it looked like we were gonna hack the planet. This year ended with me starting my first job after the move.
27 - Annndd this year started with me quitting that job. I got into another job that I am still working at, it's way better and is the best job ive had. Unfortunately this is where some more sad stuff does happen. This is the year Covid started popping up. This is also the year my Mom passed away. It was sudden. It showed me how lucky I was to have those in my life that I did. I still can't believe how many people from my life came to put a hand on my shoulder. My job told me to take all the time I needed and that my position would be mine when I came back. After 3 weeks I came back and even ended up being promoted, apparently I had left a lasting impression. My Mom would've been proud. The rest of this year went on with lock down life being a thing. I still worked, I was lucky to not lose my job during this time.
28 - With Covid in toe, this year didn't have any super major moments. Work continued to go well. This was the year I said Goodbye to the car that had got me here. That little Maxima was on it's last legs so I said my Thank Yous and got my current car. Near the end of this year we took a trip to Vegas. It was my first time there and we had a blast. Near the end of the year we had a run in with bed bugs. This was a difficult thing for us all to handle, but we supported eachother through the treatments. This was also the year that I started baking my own cookies from scratch in December for my yearly cookie days. Mmmmm Warm cookies. I brought a bunch to work and shocked everyone haha.
29 - This year was the year we decided to stop living in an apartment and take the big leap. We moved into a house. Pre-house birthdays were very low key as the home journey would consume all our time. And with luck we did it and got into the house we live in today. It's pretty freakin' sweet. UNFORTUNATELY a week before we moved in the water heater burst. We had already had a scheduled day for it to be replaced too. Though this ended up working in our favor as it made us replace the downstairs carpet right away. For me this was the first time I was living in a house since the start of my 20s before I moved in with my roommate. As things settled down, the end of the year was joyous. I went to my cousins Wedding and revealed sick dance moves. Cody and Bleu went to Disneyland for Bleu's birthday. YKC and I went to a show and kept the house company, I was very noisey. Then to end the year we had some folks over, finally getting to use the space to it's fullest. Cookie month was Great this year, I had plenty of Kitchen counter space to go wild with.
30 - And here we are. One day before the transition from 2 to 3. What an insane journey it has been and what an insane journey is yet to come. All the people I've met. The places I've been to. The experiences. When I sit down and look at it all in the span of 10 years it seems like so much when at the time it felt like so little. As I move into my 30s there are things I want to work on. I feel like I know myself so much better than I did when I was 20, I'm so much different. But there is something that still sticks true. I need to learn to be more patient with myself. I'm always so critical and so hard on myself. Everyday is another chance to be better, I will try.
Thank you for reading a long. Again there is so much left out from these summaries. Again looking back can be humbling. It can help you think of ways to move forward. Take care and here's to the future. <3
When I turned 20 there was something I did and I had hoped that when I turned 30 I would do the same. I took time and just thought of everything that had happened in the past years. It was humbling and helped me to appreciate the journey. So today I spent some time doing that, I thought maybe I would share. I think its good to take a moment and appreciate the good and yes even the bad that got you where you are today. Appreciate what might be helping lead you into tomorrow. So yes Ill be talking about some sad things as well as happy things. Of course I wont be mentioning everything just some of the major things that come to mind. Also yes Im doing this to share, but Im also doing this for me. <3
20 - When I was 20 I moved in with my first roommate. The first time living with someone who wasn't family. Before this I was living with my Aunt. It was scary but so exciting. That night we stayed up all night playing Minecraft and having a few drinks, Tsk Tsk I know. The place had next to nothing but it didn't matter.
21 - Being open to legal drinking made for some fun bar nights. There was a dive bar within walking distance of my apartment and we'd go all the time, that's where we had my 21st birthday. No it didn't get wild. My 21st birthday was also the last time I saw my Step Dad. Him and my Mom had just split. It was a tough lesson. I did some dating around this time but nothing really came of it. I kind of learned maybe it just wasn't for me.
22 - This was the age I met furries, Babyfurs, and abdls for the first time. Until this point I had never even spoken to anyone with these interests. I had been an abdl my whole life but had just always pushed it down. After hours upon hours in the TCC deviantart chatroom I ended up taking a train to Seattle to go to Rainfurrest 2015. When that weekend was over it hurt so much and at the time I didn't know why. This ended up leading to where I am in life now. I had finally learned I wasn't alone and what I was missing in life. More on this later.
23 - For my 20s this year was probably the least eventful. I got my first car, until this point I was riding a scooter around. I continued working at my first major job and it was mostly just routine. Work, hang out with roommate, talk in chats.
24 - This year came with some hardships. My car had broken down, I wasn't able to take a trip to see Cody and Bleu. But this was also the year I went to the Abu warehouse and started to become a legit diaper snob, lol. This year is also when I was in a pretty bad accident in my 2nd car. The car was totaled and I had almost died. As bad as it was, it was an eye opener. It made me realize how much of my life I spent just working and not living. This was another big moment that lead to me being where I am now.
25 - Ooohh boy this is a big one! After the car accident, the person who hit me quickly claimed responsibility and that money got me my new car. That car would break the curse of cars dieing after a year. This year I went to visit Cody, Bleu, and Cody for the first time. It was amazing. This trip was when the topic was brought up of me potentially moving to live with them. When I flew back home I cried so much. Later that same year I would also go out to visit my Dad. It was the first time I had seen him in 7 years.
26 - This is the biggest one. The biggest year of my 20s. At the start of this year, for my birthday, I went out to visit Cody, Bleu, and Cody again. This is where the topic of moving was solidified. I said no, the end. Just kidding! I said yes. I had always wanted to move out of state and being here with them felt like home. Upon my weepy return I began telling everyone my plan. Folks were sad but very happy for me. In the time before moving I mended my relationship with my Mom, something I will forever be Thankful for. I even ended up telling her I was an abdl. I was so nervous to tell her and just as I should of assumed, it made no difference. When I told her she was actually worried it was something actually bad. Later that year I said my goodbyes and with Cody, someone I had met in person at that Rainfurrest, we packed up my car, the one from the accident, And drove home. The trip was so exciting, I had never done such a long road trip before. When we stopped halfway for the night we had to bring my computer upstairs to the hotel room. It was hilarious it looked like we were gonna hack the planet. This year ended with me starting my first job after the move.
27 - Annndd this year started with me quitting that job. I got into another job that I am still working at, it's way better and is the best job ive had. Unfortunately this is where some more sad stuff does happen. This is the year Covid started popping up. This is also the year my Mom passed away. It was sudden. It showed me how lucky I was to have those in my life that I did. I still can't believe how many people from my life came to put a hand on my shoulder. My job told me to take all the time I needed and that my position would be mine when I came back. After 3 weeks I came back and even ended up being promoted, apparently I had left a lasting impression. My Mom would've been proud. The rest of this year went on with lock down life being a thing. I still worked, I was lucky to not lose my job during this time.
28 - With Covid in toe, this year didn't have any super major moments. Work continued to go well. This was the year I said Goodbye to the car that had got me here. That little Maxima was on it's last legs so I said my Thank Yous and got my current car. Near the end of this year we took a trip to Vegas. It was my first time there and we had a blast. Near the end of the year we had a run in with bed bugs. This was a difficult thing for us all to handle, but we supported eachother through the treatments. This was also the year that I started baking my own cookies from scratch in December for my yearly cookie days. Mmmmm Warm cookies. I brought a bunch to work and shocked everyone haha.
29 - This year was the year we decided to stop living in an apartment and take the big leap. We moved into a house. Pre-house birthdays were very low key as the home journey would consume all our time. And with luck we did it and got into the house we live in today. It's pretty freakin' sweet. UNFORTUNATELY a week before we moved in the water heater burst. We had already had a scheduled day for it to be replaced too. Though this ended up working in our favor as it made us replace the downstairs carpet right away. For me this was the first time I was living in a house since the start of my 20s before I moved in with my roommate. As things settled down, the end of the year was joyous. I went to my cousins Wedding and revealed sick dance moves. Cody and Bleu went to Disneyland for Bleu's birthday. YKC and I went to a show and kept the house company, I was very noisey. Then to end the year we had some folks over, finally getting to use the space to it's fullest. Cookie month was Great this year, I had plenty of Kitchen counter space to go wild with.
30 - And here we are. One day before the transition from 2 to 3. What an insane journey it has been and what an insane journey is yet to come. All the people I've met. The places I've been to. The experiences. When I sit down and look at it all in the span of 10 years it seems like so much when at the time it felt like so little. As I move into my 30s there are things I want to work on. I feel like I know myself so much better than I did when I was 20, I'm so much different. But there is something that still sticks true. I need to learn to be more patient with myself. I'm always so critical and so hard on myself. Everyday is another chance to be better, I will try.
Thank you for reading a long. Again there is so much left out from these summaries. Again looking back can be humbling. It can help you think of ways to move forward. Take care and here's to the future. <3
Good to take time to reflect on the journey taken to arrive at where you are today. I enjoyed reading about it.