Hello there, friends. JC Solis here.

I... don't normally post private things on the internet - especially when it pertains to my mental health like with what I'm about to talk about right now. I guess... I figure you guys would get tired over me complaining and whining and giving you all grief over my life when it should be things that I myself must resolve. At the same time, I don't want to burden anyone with the knowledge that my mental health is declining or causing me even more stress and undue sorrow. It should be something I need not bring up unless necessary.

I guess... I haven't been feeling too good these past few days. Perhaps it's because of the death of my grandmother that's left me in this state, but I think it might be other stressors in my life as well. I don't really know why I've begun to feel even more upset than usual, only except that I'm now at a point where I need to rest.

I guess what I mean to say is that I'm taking some time off to go on Hiatus. I need time to recover and get better, and that might include me not doing commissions anymore for the time being.

I've just felt as though my mental health has been taking a downward spiral toward becoming even more and more unhinged. I've been hearing terrible voices, just a cacophony of auditory confusion - as well as frightening visions inside of my head that cause me to twitch and spasm from the sheer shock of what I'm seeing. My mind is finding it difficult to cognitively focus even more on the things that are around me - and even causes me to not understand what someone else is saying to me. And worst of all is the lack of drive and energy, which keeps me from doing the things that I want to do anyways.

I don't want to make this a habit, of posting my woes online to see if anyone would even care. I just do this out of hoping that I leave something behind in case I start to feel even worse. If you guys, feel moved enough to leave a comment or perhaps ask how I've been doing, then that would be much appreciated. But for now, I need to take some time off. I need to rest and repose and make sure that I can work towards making myself feel better and recover the sanity that I lost over these past few weeks.

It's difficult to manage a mental illness that causes your reality to twist and warp around, making the very world around you seem like a strange and alien place. Once I'm done with hiatus and taking a break, I might post a Schizophrenia Poem to mark what I went through and maybe give even more insight into how my mind has been feeling and what other people like me might feel as well.

For now, I just want to let everyone know that, yes, I'm going on Hiatus and that I'll be back after some time of self-reflection and recovery. I just need more time to myself, and maybe pick up some pieces that I've dropped.

For those of you wondering about commission work - I'll still work on the commissions that I have now, but I'll be taking my time with them. I need to heal, and I need to rest.

I know tomorrow is Valentine's Day, and I had plans to post a Poképhilia Story entry for Valentine's Day - but with my current condition, I just can't get the job done. I'm in no mood and I have no strength to write a love story. And right now, I'm not really in a festive mood since I'm still mourning my grandma's death. I'll post it once I've come back from Hiatus and have recovered fully.

I hope all of you guys can understand. I just need to rest and recover, and once I'm back I hope to work on many more poems and stories. Pokephilia Story is still my top priority, and I'll be sure to post the Valentine's Day entry once I've recovered enough of my mental functionality.

I'm not dumping the Valentine's Day Entry just yet. I think it'll turn out to be a great story... but for now, I just need a break. And anyone who still is still waiting on a commission from me: rest assured that it'll be done. Just give me time. I'm not feeling my best right now.

Thank you all for sticking by my side, and here's to writing even more poems and stories...

Sincerely,
J.C. Solis