there's just so much happening right now. I'm moving to Lowell, My mother went off the deep end... it doesn't stop. >.< Plus it's raining. I have some inner conflicts that are munching me in the stomach still and I'm trying really hard to let them go but they're being bitches and hanging on tight.

 elgrapadora He's the best thing that's ever happened to me. I'm just so very lucky that he's here for me now because he makes life so much brighter, even on this rainy day. I can't wait to move to Lowell, I'll be closer to him, closer to school, and away from home. No matter what happens with my mother, I will never let anything come between me and my darling fox.

I'm not sure why i decided to write this all down, it's kind of just nonsensical rambling, but ehh, it helped. I had a good night last night, even though it got a kind of late start. I even had a good morning today but now I'm home and the pressure's back on and i have to work in an hour.

I think a big thing right now with me is that the only thing I'm sure about is Zack. Everything else is up in the air and it's making me clingy as fuck. I hope I'm not going overboard. *shakes head* I gotta stop worrying.