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After Commissions...
2 years ago
I will be leaving the art community for some time after I finish them...
The stress that comes to me just at the thought of how long these things have been on my to do list anymore. My mind goes into a panic.
For so long I wasnt able to do any art because I was so tired all the time from my pregnancy and working 50 hr weeks and now that she's here. I still struggle to have any inspiration because of my postpartum and working still.
I'm one of Three Managers left at my location
I work a full time job
I'm a first time mom
My relationship has been getting torn apart this last month
I'm mentally not okay at all, I'm really really not and I'm getting so pissed at myself anymore.
I barely eat or drink, Ive been putting my baby and work ahead of everything else.
There's to much happening and I'm not even taking care of myself.
SO badly I want to get you guys these pieces of art, but I can't give you guys good pieces of art if I can't have any inspiration or love to put into them. Today was the first day I finally felt inspiration and I just decided alright, I'm gonna work on some art, not gonna check anything else so I can stay calm and relaxed. And I did it, I drew a piece of art for the first time in a year practically and I was over the moon.
But then came the stress again once I opened some unwelcoming messages.
At this point I can't deal with it, I know my communication has been horrible but I have a life offline that is busy all the time. I never have time for myself anymore- I- UGJRESHOIURSHI
I can't find anymore words, at this point I'm just going to finish the pieces, send them and go offline.
One day I may come back, I don't think I will do commissions ever again though. They were enjoyable to do for a long time for you guys, but now that I can't get them out. I can't do it. I can not take anything more, if I feel that there going to take as long as they are now. I'm done at this point.
I'm sorry guys..
Love you all and I hope the future treats you all well.
I'll be in touch someday...
but you do what ya gotta do to relax first and foremost! Ya will always have my support!
I'm also a first time mama
I hope your break from the art community helps you immensely.