Hiya, I guess I don't write journals often, but maybe that's something that'll change(?).

I don't open up about anything too personal on Twitter or DA, or ever really, owing to a mix of audience or that awkward feeling that I'm over sharing. For some reason FA doesn't feel quite so difficult to write stuff down in as it's *generally* a smaller more kink-specific audience, I guess. That and I can just be a huge furry without apologising for it.

Things have changed. Since the beginning of this year I've made a concerted effort to take better care of myself, with nicer clothes, better hair and skin products, going to the gym and not being so stressed about stuff. For years and years I've been performing for people to act and appear in a certain way and I'm just done with it... so here I am, happier, more driven and predictably a lot hornier.

This year I've been so much more fluid about everything and it's extremely gratifying, and it's allowed me to experiment and express myself in ways long overdue and it feels effortless to let go finally. I'm happy to be different and revel in all the stuff I enjoy, particularly if I get to draw more and potentially create more interesting furry, weight gain and transformation stuff.

I've decided that all this is a really important part of me so keen to let it take over a little bit more. It feels right and gets me excited.

xxx