Hanging on by a thread, but alive.
Mental health has been bad for the entire year. Been rationing medication because I don't know when I'll be able to get more so my mood and energy are never consistent. Having a hard time reaching out to my friends (my close friends on other sites) because I can barely articulate things to them anymore. Ended up extremely codependent on one person and ended myself up super alone as a result. Only recently been able to draw satisfactory and its been more adopts. Been too much of a perfectionist to finish an art trade or start a commission. Been wondering what sort of neurodivergent I might actually be, and am probably just undiagnosed and a diagnosis might end up just making me feel worse not better. Not that I can afford to get checked for either regardless.

I don't even know why I'm airing this out. Because I don't feel comfortable saying it to the people I've known for five-ten years suddenly?

Its out there regardless.

I dont knw when itll get better but i wanna get shit done. i just dont feel like im cpable.