I feel like updating after my journal from earlier in the week- I'm feeling much better now. I DID get tonsillitis, I assume from the stress causing my immune system to poop out for a few days, but I'm almost fully recovered from that too so things are starting to feel back on track.

I do still feel very paranoid, driving anywhere is even scarier than it used to be, but giving myself a little time to recover where I wasn't focusing on anything in particular is something I think I needed for a looooong time. I'm finally enjoying making art again and I think I'm actually improving for the first time in like a year which is a great feeling.

I know I'll continue to have ups and downs, but I'll try to remember how grateful I am to have this space and community online. Making art just because I enjoy it and it makes me happy is really a blessing that can be easy to overlook sometimes. I think its really important to put simple happy feelings into art and not just the sad and complicated ones. It doesn't make it any less meaningful is what I'm saying...

Anyways, just wanted to get that out there. Some of yall left very kind comments on my journal earlier this week, which made me feel a lot better. I do see my therapist every week and I am surrounded with loved ones every day so I'm sure I'll be alright, and I feel really lucky to have that.

I hope you're all doing great, and I should have some stuff to post tomorrow so I hope to see yall there! <3