Hi all,

I just needed to let everyone know that I'm okay. I had a weird initial reaction to my new meds, and between that, some horrible anti-LGBTQ+ messages my only remaining grandmother decided to send me (bad enough that I had to cut her out of my life entirely), and the avalanche of new anti-trans legislation in Florida (I don't know which public bathroom I'm supposed to use safely and in accordance with the law anymore, and now I can't even work in the job field that I went to grad school for just because I'm trans and nonbinary), I spent the last few weeks dissociating. Everything seemed both not real and entirely too real, and just handling day to day life was completely overwhelming. My doctor has now upped my medication dose and added another so I can sleep, though, and I seem to have evened out as much as I can while Florida's going to Hell. I'm packing up to move out of this hellhole of a state, but I feel like I'm being run out of my home and have no choice at this point, and that and the moving process just add to the overwhelm.

I'm so sorry for disappearing, but I desperately needed to focus on keeping my myself stable so that I didn't have another complete mental breakdown. I really don't want to go down that path again.

Streams are currently on hiatus because they still feel like too much to handle, but I'm doing some work off-stream, so keep an eye out for posts and other updates soon.

Thank you so much to everyone who sent messages to check and see if I was okay. I'll get back to all of you as soon as I can. ❤️

- Ferret-Badger