So my birthday is coming up and i will be 27 on June 13th. To be honest I'm not really excited about it anymore. I'm unable to work cause of an injury, Scared of looking for a job cause of anxieties, and I've got no social network to use. I'm so anti social that if it wasn't for my folks at home i wouldn't get out much. On top of that I'm constantly horny but so anti social I neglect people. Im sorry for all those who try to rp with me but get no where. On top of that, My parents aren't doing to well so I feel its my responsiblity to watch over them. I don't even consider dating an option. I'm so torn up about how my last relationship ended. Pretty sure i'm in a spiral. Wish i could find a job that doesn't require any fancy skills or moving around to much. Pretty sure i qualify to be trailer trash. I honestly dont have a good self image. Having high functioning Autism is very confusing. I can talk and act like normal yes, but inside my brain panics and I can't really hold a conversation too well. Then I have cognitive gaps, where my thought process just stops functioning and i freeze up unable to remember what i was doing. Anyways if you made it this far thanks for reading my rant. I needed to get rid of some steam and bottled emotions. I try to do my best keep sane but its definately an uphill battle.