I feel your pain. It has been rough all around. Don't hesitate to txt me if you need company or anything.
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Life can sure stack up on you, no joke. And even when you have a clear plan forward, it still feels like it takes forever to get past the obstacles. Hang in there, Kisu, it'll get better!

It's perfectly alright to feel like that, especially these days. I know all too well how you feel, I'm still fruitlessly searching for a living space I can afford while staying in temporary housing, so I'm very super familiar with struggle. But know that you always have ears to listen to you and shoulders to lean on; it will all turn out alright again even if it might not seem like that >^_^<

I can absolutely sympathize, life is so rough and many times it just feels fruitless regardless what you do. I really hope things smooth over and look up for you, you deserve the absolute best.