You're Not Dangerous
16 years ago
-"This is the one situation.. I wanted most to avoid."
"My dear opponent, I really can't imagine why."
-"So I am not dangerous, then? What a shame..."
"Oh, you're not dangerous... who could think that of.."
both- "You? You are so strange... Why can't you be what you ought to be? You should be scheming, intriguing, too clever by heart..."
"I have to hand it to you... For you've managed to make me forget why I ever agreed to this farce."
Both- "I don't know why I can't think of anything I would rather do...
Than be wasting my time on mountains with you."
I wonder so often now. Where am I going? I mean, we can't gain anything without sacrificing some. That's why some things hurt and we can't do anything about it.
Macen, you understand what I mean... God I miss you. Why has there never been romance in my life? You're so charming. But you still find it nearly impossible. What are you missing? Because I can't see it. What am I missing? Do I even want it? Because I can't see it in everyone. I can't even be sexually attracted to people I don't really care for. What is the purpose of all of this? Why am I even writing about this?
I suppose my doors will only open further. And that's a good thing... because it gives me a broader view of what's in this world.
After all, I do have a metal heart. Right? I just want to be strong. I want to do the right thing. I want to help people.
The passage of time heals all.
"Let man's petty nations tear themselves apart. My land's only borders lie around my heart..."
"My dear opponent, I really can't imagine why."
-"So I am not dangerous, then? What a shame..."
"Oh, you're not dangerous... who could think that of.."
both- "You? You are so strange... Why can't you be what you ought to be? You should be scheming, intriguing, too clever by heart..."
"I have to hand it to you... For you've managed to make me forget why I ever agreed to this farce."
Both- "I don't know why I can't think of anything I would rather do...
Than be wasting my time on mountains with you."
I wonder so often now. Where am I going? I mean, we can't gain anything without sacrificing some. That's why some things hurt and we can't do anything about it.
Macen, you understand what I mean... God I miss you. Why has there never been romance in my life? You're so charming. But you still find it nearly impossible. What are you missing? Because I can't see it. What am I missing? Do I even want it? Because I can't see it in everyone. I can't even be sexually attracted to people I don't really care for. What is the purpose of all of this? Why am I even writing about this?
I suppose my doors will only open further. And that's a good thing... because it gives me a broader view of what's in this world.
After all, I do have a metal heart. Right? I just want to be strong. I want to do the right thing. I want to help people.
The passage of time heals all.
"Let man's petty nations tear themselves apart. My land's only borders lie around my heart..."
I'd like to believe we go wherever we drive ourselves to go. Sure, we may have a destiny.. a purpose... some greater calling - but it's squat if we just sit on our hands and do nothing.
It's tough to do and I know you don't think you are, but you're strong enough Anubis :3 You are!
I know I certainly am not sexually attracted to people I don't care about. And there are people I care about whom I'm not sexually attracted to.
One does not equal the other and usually they both have to be there to some extent
Always learning.
I had an amazing revelation about myself this morning. Not matter how well you think you know yourself there will always be more to learn..