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Ill feeling
2 years ago
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(Talks of suicide, and depression)
Very ill feeling when I get into my deepest depressed state to the point of wanting suicide.. 9 months of this and still nothing gets me moving. I can't work as it interferes too much to the point no one would hire someone in such a depressed state. I try to push myself only to fall back down thinking "What's the point? It's just going to be the same BS." Therapy is just so slow with little results the past 4 months. I don't bother with my bills as I see it just another burden not worth the time of day. After all it's just going to get written off after I die right? What's the point in paying if I do pick to pull the trigger?
Yes I have people that care about me, but most are nowhere near me to hold and comfort me. I had pretty much given up on keeping up with meds. My depression and guilt of my life has left me with memory issues, and constant dizziness. No motivation to get out of bed and constant sleepless nights. I haven't been eating like I used to just to stretch food out and to not be too much of a burden on family. Only eating my fill on food that is about to go bad.
Very ill feeling when I get into my deepest depressed state to the point of wanting suicide.. 9 months of this and still nothing gets me moving. I can't work as it interferes too much to the point no one would hire someone in such a depressed state. I try to push myself only to fall back down thinking "What's the point? It's just going to be the same BS." Therapy is just so slow with little results the past 4 months. I don't bother with my bills as I see it just another burden not worth the time of day. After all it's just going to get written off after I die right? What's the point in paying if I do pick to pull the trigger?
Yes I have people that care about me, but most are nowhere near me to hold and comfort me. I had pretty much given up on keeping up with meds. My depression and guilt of my life has left me with memory issues, and constant dizziness. No motivation to get out of bed and constant sleepless nights. I haven't been eating like I used to just to stretch food out and to not be too much of a burden on family. Only eating my fill on food that is about to go bad.
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I dunno where you live... Most likely I cannot be there for you physically, but please if there's anything I can do to help please let me know. **Hugs very very tightly**
A good talk can do wonders. Please take your meds as well
You are no burden and never were, i used to think i was a burden till i talked with my mom about it. You have people who care about you and are concern about you. Please dont axe yourself