What do I do?
2 years ago
Letter drops, sealed with a wax feather.
I hate to say it, but this is turning into one of the worst years of my life. This whole year started out rough, though things got better thankfully before school started to get out of hand. But then I came back from my cruise feeling homesick to finally put those feelings aside, only to have to be relocated to my grandparents house because of water damage, and only a month after finding out about said damage are they actually going to try and fix it, and then another four weeks will be spent towards that. Except by the time that’s all settled, the summer is over. And this really isn’t how I wanted to spend my summer, as there were so many things I wanted to do starting this year, and yet all of it was put on hold because of this.
But it gets even worse from there. It wasn’t just me having a rough time. A lot of my friends who I won’t name either were also upset, or are upset now. I’m doing my best to be there for them, but knowing all of this is taking the last summer of my childhood and dragging me through the mud. I don’t want to be the one who just abandons everyone, but I just don’t know what I’m supposed to do to help…
But it gets even worse from there. It wasn’t just me having a rough time. A lot of my friends who I won’t name either were also upset, or are upset now. I’m doing my best to be there for them, but knowing all of this is taking the last summer of my childhood and dragging me through the mud. I don’t want to be the one who just abandons everyone, but I just don’t know what I’m supposed to do to help…
FA+

Don't stress over not helping people if you also need help.
At the end of the day there are always people you didn't help, There always will be. The random person you met at the store might have needed help and you didn't. it's not something one should worry about. Just be there for who you can and the rest will work out mostly...Well sometimes.
It's why most of the news I ignore, I know this sounds kind of mean but if a bomb goes off halfway around the world there is little I can do about it. But I can be helping the people around me to build a better tomorrow. As nice as it would be to wave a magic wand and help everyone don't feel like you need to be there all the time. There is only one you. You can't help everyone. Just help where you can and that means you need to also be in a state to help.
Sorry if this sounds like an attack? I don't know I think it could be taken as one maybe?
Final thought: The only thing you can do is be there if they need help. At some point you also need to know that you don't have all the cards and you feel like it is your fault for cards played by other people. (These are things like if people don't want to talk or they chose not to ask for help.) What is in your power is to make sure that you keep the play where when they ask for help you can be there. (I don't have an example for what that looks like...Still working on that one XD.)
I'm starting to ramble, and I think I lost the main point along the way. Hope you are doing well and I give you some of my hugs. I wish I had a solution that always worked but that's the mess known as life...Hm...now I'm starting to sound like one of those the world is ending so why bother people...
Anyway hope things get better, if you need to talk I am here usually though probably the moment you need me I will not have the card to play...Hm...I will do my best to be there if you need it.
P.S. Life is mostly things that you want to do being put on hold. I know because that is how mine seems to be going, then it all comes crashing down at once and you wish it was still on hold but then you need to act or you might miss it. Then you miss it and feel like you missed the one chance to do the thing but there are always more of those. Remember that one failer is not the end (unless you die.) life is about getting back up to be ready for the next time that customer service picks up the phone, so you have all the paperwork ready to go then they need something else, and you have to be put on hold again. (This is why being put on hold is annoying subconsciously it reminds us of life.)
I hope this helps? I don't think it will all that much but eh that's what you get it's the card I had at the time. Bye have a good day!
As for your last summer of childhood, try to see the bright side of things. What were you able to do? Is there something more you can do to make it more enjoyable? Can you hang out with peeps you enjoy? What are some of the bright side things that you can find with your summer? That's how I often have to look at the hard times. Even right now, with me struggling as much as I am, I still look to the bright things in life. I am married with an amazing husband. We don't have a nice apartment but it is ours and we've made it our home. We are able to afford food and rent and some fun things on the side. Life is hard, but living is enjoyable when you want it to be.