Sometimes things are actually OK
2 years ago
So, without going into a whole lot of back story, I've been going through a lot feelings over the last few years. Covid was definitely a catalyst. Feelings related to myself (still trying to figure myself out and how I can fit in to my surroundings) but also dealing with a just.... general disdain for people.
I, honestly, thought I'd moved past it in my twenties, but, more and more, I find myself falling back into those same feelings and IT'S NOT A PHASE, MOM! *stamps my foot*
Anyway, to my original point, about a year ago, I started painting my nails because, like, why not? Also it helps a bit with gender identity and whatnot.
I have gotten... so many compliments about my nails! I love it! And, honestly. when I first started painting them, I braced myself for some one to get upset and/or call me some slurs, but, to my surprise, it hasn't ever happened! Once, a guy asked me why I painted my nails and I just said because I liked the way it looked.
As of the time I'm posting this, yesterday, I had one person apologize for, possibly, misgendering me; I never would've been offended, but I absolutely love that they even took that into account!
I also had 3 separate people compliment me on my fingernails in the same day! It makes me feel good because, while not every person will compliment me (I'm not fishing for compliments), I absolutely love that there are people in the world who... give a shit. It makes me feel better about the state of the world.
I, honestly, thought I'd moved past it in my twenties, but, more and more, I find myself falling back into those same feelings and IT'S NOT A PHASE, MOM! *stamps my foot*
Anyway, to my original point, about a year ago, I started painting my nails because, like, why not? Also it helps a bit with gender identity and whatnot.
I have gotten... so many compliments about my nails! I love it! And, honestly. when I first started painting them, I braced myself for some one to get upset and/or call me some slurs, but, to my surprise, it hasn't ever happened! Once, a guy asked me why I painted my nails and I just said because I liked the way it looked.
As of the time I'm posting this, yesterday, I had one person apologize for, possibly, misgendering me; I never would've been offended, but I absolutely love that they even took that into account!
I also had 3 separate people compliment me on my fingernails in the same day! It makes me feel good because, while not every person will compliment me (I'm not fishing for compliments), I absolutely love that there are people in the world who... give a shit. It makes me feel better about the state of the world.
RayKamiya
~raykamiya
*huggles*
JD86
~jd86
OP
Huggs
CuteLittleDiaperedGirl
~cutelittlediaperedgirl
Hugs you, I'm happy you're doing okay I've always loved your work.
JD86
~jd86
OP
Thank you! I always appreciate any kind of praise~
CuteLittleDiaperedGirl
~cutelittlediaperedgirl
Your welcome.
Tamae
~tamae
Covid was rough for a lot of us. But you're right, sometimes things are actually much better than you think they are in the moment. Just have to get out of your own head sometimes.
JD86
~jd86
OP
That's so real. I have to constantly remind myself to get out of own head.
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