To my amazing friends and to the people of this esteemed community. I got some news I want to share and I'm afraid in the future after I post this I'll just contradict this journal entirely.

But ey, no one is perfect in life, hell, I know I'm not. So I've decided to..... step away for a while, I need to work on myself and my mental health. Nothing wrong I'm not going sicko mode or anything. I'm just saying I'm tired.

Not to a point of exhaustion but tired of needing brownie points and art from other people. And tired of not committing to my own journey, so I been thinking it over, I hesitate, I procrastinate, I'm and my own worst enemy.

The feeling of wanting, having, and needing of attention is holding me back. My worse fear is that I'll be alone, I'll always lose people, and that I'll always be a laughing stock or a loser. I'll never be able to get out and go for myself. I'm like a damn sheep waiting for their farmer to tell them what to do.

Maybe I'm just too scared to take the first step.

Well that needs to change, I need to rediscover who Celo is, I need to find purpose, I need to learn not to care what people think, I mostly importantly need to learn not to rely on my friends, and other things that brings me happiness. That's what I'll do for now on.

This doesn't mean I'm retiring from this wonderful world of furry community. But it just means if I want to get better at my stories and art, this mean I need to get off my ass and touch grass!

And so I'll end it here, and if one of you said I did this before and believe I would fold, imma need you to take this ratio and fuck off! Judge me all you want, it's my life not yours.

Ahem! With all that said I bid yall adu, see you later friends!